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Monday, February 21, 2005
Welcome.
To Trent's Concentration Camp.
Today's menu: Fried Macaroni with golden nuggets and egg.
What?!?!?! You mean, you cannot tell that's fried macaroni with golden nuggets and egg? What's wrong with you people? First you can't figure out the wonderful card I made below, and now this?
Ok I admit lah.. my first time cooking macaroni. I have no idea how to do it. I know that I have to soak the macaroni in hot water so they soften, and expand. That, I did.
But then they still felt a little soggy, and I didn't know how to dry them, so I just threw them all into the frying pan. But they weren't already in their own macaroni shapes. They were already mashed together. So I suddenly thought of cooking them like they were fried carrot cake. I added some soya sauce and sweet sauce (tian jiang) and friend and fried. And fried the egg, chopped the egg, chopped the mashed macaroni to pieces but they somehow automatically mash back. The "golden" nuggets were a little burnt as well, but at least this time they were crispy and nice to eat. The other time I cooked nuggets, Princess P took a small bite and refused to eat anymore. Boohoohoo. ='( But I'm getting there....
So my fried macaroni ended up like cai tao kuay lor....
And frankly it tasted quite good ley.. but most things taste good to me so...... the food I cook so far is only fit for my own individual consumption.
triggering Mr Ng HS |
Sunday, February 20, 2005
Singapore's latest action hero.
Jamie Han. Write this name down.
Yup that final year History undergraduate. He was the guy who mentioned the words 'despot' and 'tyrant' during the Kent Ridge ministerial forum at NUS where MM Lee spoke a few weeks back, and got his face and words printed all over the press soon after.
I too know him, not really well, but I know him, 'cos we are both mentors (not from the same mentoring school though). If you remember his conversation with MM Lee, he mentioned his articles weren't published.
So what does the government do, publish one of his letters soon, as follows:
Why are we so afraid of the 'R' words?
Basically, 'race' and 'religion'. He talks about how we should bring out these issues to discuss since we're enjoying a substantial state of peace right now.
"The Government can help encourage such discussion by relaxing the publishing laws so that more avenues would be made available for people to discuss these and other important issues that affect our society."
Here is another reader's reply:
Irresponsible press could reopen old wounds.
"Old wounds can be reopened through an irresponsible press, especially on issues concerning race and religion which do not tend to be resolved easily."
~
I agree with Jamie somewhat. I check out some forums and talk to some people about these topics once in a while, and everyone become so sensitive. This is 2005. Is race and religion still seen as a taboo topic? Unbelievable. But while I understand the mentality of discussing them and taking the opportunity to get to know one another better, there will always be bigots and / or idiots who insist on their ways and shut off their sound systems when other people are offering their point of view. If anyone reading this is one of them, I sincerely urge you to reflect. You're not always correct. Listening is a good virtue.
As for the press, well it's always debatable whether the press is controlled by the government isn't it? I agree that the goverment censors letters. I mean, can you imagine if we read on comments about how sucky our government is and minister who and who should go to hell or how our president should be paid less than S$4 million a year, which incidentally is how much our president earns. That's why censorship is important. But I agree that people who write in sensibly and rationally should have their views aired, especially about such crucial concerns of race and religion. Otherwise, we'll always be in our small little well with our earplugs on and ignorant about the rest of the communities.
There should not be fear of these "R" words. In fact, we should bear in mind another "R" instead.
That is what we term as "respect". In this case the other "R"s will come out strong and productive.
~
Am writing this as I watch Man Utd play Everton in the FA cup. I'll sleep after that, and go play soccer in the morning. In the afternoon I ill unpack my stuff and arrange nicely in my new cupboard, and will show you guys how beautiful it is. Then I'll get some studying done, and later on it will be BLACK HAWK DOWN.
In case none of you haven't realised, I love war movies. If I have the money I'll slowly collect all the war classics, and watch them again and again. More recent ones like "pearl harbour", "enemy at the gates". Classics like "hamburger hill" (never seen before!) and "the longest day." Offhand I remember I only have "windtalkers", "saving private ryan", "we were soldiers" and "band of brothers". Oh, and "Hitler" which I STILL haven't watched. The 180 minute duration turns me off a little.
So, Black hawk down is a must watch on my agenda for tomorrow. Think I've blabbered long enough. 15minutes to full time and off to sleep I go.
Good night!! Good day!!
triggering Mr Ng HS |
Jamie Han. Write this name down.
Yup that final year History undergraduate. He was the guy who mentioned the words 'despot' and 'tyrant' during the Kent Ridge ministerial forum at NUS where MM Lee spoke a few weeks back, and got his face and words printed all over the press soon after.
I too know him, not really well, but I know him, 'cos we are both mentors (not from the same mentoring school though). If you remember his conversation with MM Lee, he mentioned his articles weren't published.
So what does the government do, publish one of his letters soon, as follows:
Why are we so afraid of the 'R' words?
Basically, 'race' and 'religion'. He talks about how we should bring out these issues to discuss since we're enjoying a substantial state of peace right now.
"The Government can help encourage such discussion by relaxing the publishing laws so that more avenues would be made available for people to discuss these and other important issues that affect our society."
Here is another reader's reply:
Irresponsible press could reopen old wounds.
"Old wounds can be reopened through an irresponsible press, especially on issues concerning race and religion which do not tend to be resolved easily."
~
I agree with Jamie somewhat. I check out some forums and talk to some people about these topics once in a while, and everyone become so sensitive. This is 2005. Is race and religion still seen as a taboo topic? Unbelievable. But while I understand the mentality of discussing them and taking the opportunity to get to know one another better, there will always be bigots and / or idiots who insist on their ways and shut off their sound systems when other people are offering their point of view. If anyone reading this is one of them, I sincerely urge you to reflect. You're not always correct. Listening is a good virtue.
As for the press, well it's always debatable whether the press is controlled by the government isn't it? I agree that the goverment censors letters. I mean, can you imagine if we read on comments about how sucky our government is and minister who and who should go to hell or how our president should be paid less than S$4 million a year, which incidentally is how much our president earns. That's why censorship is important. But I agree that people who write in sensibly and rationally should have their views aired, especially about such crucial concerns of race and religion. Otherwise, we'll always be in our small little well with our earplugs on and ignorant about the rest of the communities.
There should not be fear of these "R" words. In fact, we should bear in mind another "R" instead.
That is what we term as "respect". In this case the other "R"s will come out strong and productive.
~
Am writing this as I watch Man Utd play Everton in the FA cup. I'll sleep after that, and go play soccer in the morning. In the afternoon I ill unpack my stuff and arrange nicely in my new cupboard, and will show you guys how beautiful it is. Then I'll get some studying done, and later on it will be BLACK HAWK DOWN.
In case none of you haven't realised, I love war movies. If I have the money I'll slowly collect all the war classics, and watch them again and again. More recent ones like "pearl harbour", "enemy at the gates". Classics like "hamburger hill" (never seen before!) and "the longest day." Offhand I remember I only have "windtalkers", "saving private ryan", "we were soldiers" and "band of brothers". Oh, and "Hitler" which I STILL haven't watched. The 180 minute duration turns me off a little.
So, Black hawk down is a must watch on my agenda for tomorrow. Think I've blabbered long enough. 15minutes to full time and off to sleep I go.
Good night!! Good day!!
triggering Mr Ng HS |
Friday, February 18, 2005
Lowdown of the week
Tuesday:
Visited my brother's place. Mainly because dad and his wife are back and are staying over there. Dad gave me a lot of stuff brought back from China. His wife is pretty bubbly and cheerful.
Dad's angbao: $100
Seriously I don't think he can afford giving me this much. I'd think he's barely making ends meet.
Wednesday:
Surprised Princess P early in the morning. I had the car for the day and drove to her place to pick her up for school. And made a card for her.
She was so happy. =D
Went ikea later to finally buy the cupboard for my room. It will be delivered saturday afternoon.
Thursday:
We met for dinner in school, and I gave her another card - a "hide and seek" postcard. The horror movie that's showing now. But she didn't say anything about it, didn't thank me, and just put it in her bag. I was very sad. And she just sat there doing nothing to try and cheer me up. I really felt as if I was being taken for granted.
We then had a 2hour chat on msn, and things weren't really cleared up. I smsed her to tell her I hope she appreciates me more. She replied today when she woke that she will, and we got better.
Friday ie today:
Went to school to watch Brazil. Really a visually stunning film. Recommend to all sociology or political science majors. Met up with my project group to discuss Shakespeare's a midsummer night's dream.
Boring.
Met Princess P so that we could go visit Popo who stays in Chinatown. It was the first time Popo met her, and I'm very glad that the two of them talked a lot. Although popo could speak very well in mandarin, it helped that Princess P could communicate in teochew (while humble me can't) and Popo told her quite a few stuff. Most shockingly, Popo gave each of us a $100 angbao.
Princess P feels very guilty and said she will keep the notes nicely and not use them. I said that's not what Popo wants. Popo loves us and treats her as family and we should use the money wisely. We can also use it to buy stuff for her on our next visit. It was a nice visit. It's great to see Popo so fit and healthy, and cheerful and smiling. She's already 81 years old.
Total ang bao collection to date:
$578
This is getting scary, isn't it?
triggering Mr Ng HS |
Tuesday:
Visited my brother's place. Mainly because dad and his wife are back and are staying over there. Dad gave me a lot of stuff brought back from China. His wife is pretty bubbly and cheerful.
Dad's angbao: $100
Seriously I don't think he can afford giving me this much. I'd think he's barely making ends meet.
Wednesday:
Surprised Princess P early in the morning. I had the car for the day and drove to her place to pick her up for school. And made a card for her.
She was so happy. =D
Went ikea later to finally buy the cupboard for my room. It will be delivered saturday afternoon.
Thursday:
We met for dinner in school, and I gave her another card - a "hide and seek" postcard. The horror movie that's showing now. But she didn't say anything about it, didn't thank me, and just put it in her bag. I was very sad. And she just sat there doing nothing to try and cheer me up. I really felt as if I was being taken for granted.
We then had a 2hour chat on msn, and things weren't really cleared up. I smsed her to tell her I hope she appreciates me more. She replied today when she woke that she will, and we got better.
Friday ie today:
Went to school to watch Brazil. Really a visually stunning film. Recommend to all sociology or political science majors. Met up with my project group to discuss Shakespeare's a midsummer night's dream.
Boring.
Met Princess P so that we could go visit Popo who stays in Chinatown. It was the first time Popo met her, and I'm very glad that the two of them talked a lot. Although popo could speak very well in mandarin, it helped that Princess P could communicate in teochew (while humble me can't) and Popo told her quite a few stuff. Most shockingly, Popo gave each of us a $100 angbao.
Princess P feels very guilty and said she will keep the notes nicely and not use them. I said that's not what Popo wants. Popo loves us and treats her as family and we should use the money wisely. We can also use it to buy stuff for her on our next visit. It was a nice visit. It's great to see Popo so fit and healthy, and cheerful and smiling. She's already 81 years old.
Total ang bao collection to date:
$578
This is getting scary, isn't it?
triggering Mr Ng HS |
Tuesday, February 15, 2005
A Valentine's Day of gigantic proportions.
Quarter pound cheese burger.
Grilled chicken foldover.
End of advertisement.
Anyone from Mcdonalds please inform your higher authorities to contact me and send me a cheque yah.
Yesterday.
Yup. Princess P and I had that for our Valentine's Day dinner. And twister fries! Her day ended at 6pm while mine ended at 8! So she patiently waited for me in the library. We then went to west coast park and had Macs. Then we climbed to the middle platform of the rope pyramid thingy and exchanged our presents. I lost 5 times consecutively in our scissors-paper-stone challenge so my present was to be opened first. But she couldn't guess what I gave her, while it took me 2 tries to guess hers. She asked how come I'm so 厉害 (li hai - smart in this context).
Yeah 厉害 hor? =p
She did this herself! Wow! Imagine the time and effort put in! Isn't it so pretty? It's showing the guy carrying the girl up so that she can drink from the water fountain, but the water trajectory was too high and landed on the guy's head instead.
我好喜欢。 =D
Inside the pouch were cards she made and tied together, with a nice little story about Princess P and I, narrated by the pouch. So cute!!
I then sent her home 'cos it was already 10pm and both of us had a long day. We talked at her void deck till close to 11pm, and when we finally got to her house door, we stood there talking for another hour and a half!! I guess we both really 不舍得走。 (couldn't bear to part)
For the record, I gave her a box of stuff I specially chosen, inclusive of a customised little keychain I bought for her, and cards which I made and wrote. Hehehe. She said she always love the cards I make. Because they are very creative. Just a few days ago, I gave her one, and she didn't understand what it was showing. Here it is:
I've edited our names to be Princess P and Trent, and blurred out the centre bit. Otherwise it's what it is.
So what is it? What do you see?
Very difficult meh? I told her I bet her mother could comprehend, but she couldn't! And I asked my friend and she also couldn't! (You know who you are! =( haha ) Princess P said nobody will be able to understand except 4 year olds. Huh my art so lousy meh....
I've had a wonderful Valentine's night (not day haha) with her. It's our first. We both don't see the day as very special itself, but it was an opportunity to show our affection and affirmation.
So what do you see in that last picture? For those of you who think it's so obvious, don't comment yet. For the rest, it's time to comment! How come I don't get many comments!
triggering Mr Ng HS |
Quarter pound cheese burger.
Grilled chicken foldover.
End of advertisement.
Anyone from Mcdonalds please inform your higher authorities to contact me and send me a cheque yah.
Yesterday.
Yup. Princess P and I had that for our Valentine's Day dinner. And twister fries! Her day ended at 6pm while mine ended at 8! So she patiently waited for me in the library. We then went to west coast park and had Macs. Then we climbed to the middle platform of the rope pyramid thingy and exchanged our presents. I lost 5 times consecutively in our scissors-paper-stone challenge so my present was to be opened first. But she couldn't guess what I gave her, while it took me 2 tries to guess hers. She asked how come I'm so 厉害 (li hai - smart in this context).
Yeah 厉害 hor? =p
She did this herself! Wow! Imagine the time and effort put in! Isn't it so pretty? It's showing the guy carrying the girl up so that she can drink from the water fountain, but the water trajectory was too high and landed on the guy's head instead.
我好喜欢。 =D
Inside the pouch were cards she made and tied together, with a nice little story about Princess P and I, narrated by the pouch. So cute!!
I then sent her home 'cos it was already 10pm and both of us had a long day. We talked at her void deck till close to 11pm, and when we finally got to her house door, we stood there talking for another hour and a half!! I guess we both really 不舍得走。 (couldn't bear to part)
For the record, I gave her a box of stuff I specially chosen, inclusive of a customised little keychain I bought for her, and cards which I made and wrote. Hehehe. She said she always love the cards I make. Because they are very creative. Just a few days ago, I gave her one, and she didn't understand what it was showing. Here it is:
I've edited our names to be Princess P and Trent, and blurred out the centre bit. Otherwise it's what it is.
So what is it? What do you see?
Very difficult meh? I told her I bet her mother could comprehend, but she couldn't! And I asked my friend and she also couldn't! (You know who you are! =( haha ) Princess P said nobody will be able to understand except 4 year olds. Huh my art so lousy meh....
I've had a wonderful Valentine's night (not day haha) with her. It's our first. We both don't see the day as very special itself, but it was an opportunity to show our affection and affirmation.
So what do you see in that last picture? For those of you who think it's so obvious, don't comment yet. For the rest, it's time to comment! How come I don't get many comments!
triggering Mr Ng HS |
Saturday, February 12, 2005
Yay.
Ladies and gentlmen,
Boys and girls...
wait. how come it's not gentlemen and ladies, or girls and boys.
Princess P and I are ok liao. =p
The day started very rocky as usual, and we had a long conversation on the phone, mostly me talking. When we hung up we were still rather shaky, but as I reached her place to bai nian we got better and better. And the night ended well.
Her house was full of relatives tonight though. I didn't really have a good first impression of them. And while eating dinner with some of them (The rest playing mahjong and poker cards.) they spoke in dialect (teo chew I think) and I struggled to comprehend much. That's right. I never spoke teo chew my whole life so I only understand the most basic of words like 'eat, sleep, study' etc. I also didn't join in the gambling. And while Princess P thought me so many gambling games involving poker cards! Amazing.
I enjoyed myself more when they all left. =x
Hahaha. Had a nice time talking to her family about the various relatives.
Not so bad. =) She's coming over to my place tomorrow.
Argh, I still have so much school work to do. Plus I haven't fully prepared my valentine's day gift. Sheet.
Update on angbao count:
previously: $314
After day 4:
friend's mum (and I didn't even meet her. Her son passed it to me) : $4
Princess P's mummy: $28
Princess P's 3 aunties: $4 x 3 = $12
total: $358
hohoho merry christmas everybody.
triggering Mr Ng HS |
Ladies and gentlmen,
Boys and girls...
wait. how come it's not gentlemen and ladies, or girls and boys.
Princess P and I are ok liao. =pThe day started very rocky as usual, and we had a long conversation on the phone, mostly me talking. When we hung up we were still rather shaky, but as I reached her place to bai nian we got better and better. And the night ended well.
Her house was full of relatives tonight though. I didn't really have a good first impression of them. And while eating dinner with some of them (The rest playing mahjong and poker cards.) they spoke in dialect (teo chew I think) and I struggled to comprehend much. That's right. I never spoke teo chew my whole life so I only understand the most basic of words like 'eat, sleep, study' etc. I also didn't join in the gambling. And while Princess P thought me so many gambling games involving poker cards! Amazing.
I enjoyed myself more when they all left. =x
Hahaha. Had a nice time talking to her family about the various relatives.
Not so bad. =) She's coming over to my place tomorrow.
Argh, I still have so much school work to do. Plus I haven't fully prepared my valentine's day gift. Sheet.
Update on angbao count:
previously: $314
After day 4:
friend's mum (and I didn't even meet her. Her son passed it to me) : $4
Princess P's mummy: $28
Princess P's 3 aunties: $4 x 3 = $12
total: $358
hohoho merry christmas everybody.
triggering Mr Ng HS |
Friday, February 11, 2005
CNY day 3
I really don't understand.
Recap: She got upset when I didn't tell her something. I said it's not important. I said for the important things, some of which I made sure she was the first to know.
She replied: "They are not important yet I do not know already.. then why would I know the important ones.."
Very interesting, don't you think?
It's not as if I refuse to tell her, or that I keep secrets from her. It's precisely because they're not important so I didn't tell her. If I remember I WILL tell her about them. But if they're important of course I will tell her asap.
Then she said she's not worth my remembering those things to tell her? I don't understand at all. So I did tell her more. She said I was trying to gek her. That I just have to tell her more, not EVERYTHING? But what if I missed out something? Wouldn't it lead back to this very same issue?
And after all the things I did, she tells me she envies another girl, 'cos of how the guy is treating her? Am I so lousy?
She had school today. I asked if she wanna meet me later. She said she was tired and wants to go home.
She said things which are supposed to be 'confidential' but not important at all, can't I just tell her instead of she being stunned when people thought she knew.
The point is they are not important at all. I don't even have them at the back of my head. If I touch on them yah I'll say, if not they're not mentioned.
Argh I'm repeating myself. I'll just leave with a passage from the #2 issue of GET REAL undergrad magazine they distribute free in school.
Learning to love.
by Larry Lim
To learn to love, I believe, is as important as to love. To know when to give and take is as crucial as giving your whole hearted love. It is easy to go through highs of a relationship, but it is how you face the lows that will eventually define the relationship.
A story that I like to tell my girlfriend: a couple was enjoying a stroll on a beautiful night in a park. Suddenly they heard the sound "quack, quack". "That's a chicken," said the woman. "No, dear, that's a duck." said the guy. "That's a chicken." said the woman. "No dear, chickens go cluck cluck, ducks go quack quack." said the guy. "No, that's a chicken." insisted the woman. The guy thought for a while and then said, "Yes dear you're right. That's a chicken." The woman was then satisfied and both of them happily carried on their stroll.
What's the moral of the story? No, it's not "never fight with a woman", nor is it "never argue with a woman, you can't win!" The moral is that there are many times that a couple starts arguing for something not important at all! It doesn't matter what or who is making that stupid sound, the important issue here is that the couple was initially spending quality time and something as simple as that could have changed the mood. Imagine if both parties don't give in, a quarrel will ensue, most likely other unrelated stuff will be brought up and a 'storm' will begin. It just isn't worth it to spoil a perfect evening and a wonderful relationship over a riduculous "Quack, Quack!"
~
Only this time, she doesn't see this as a not important issue.
~~~
Edited: after midnight 1237am. The MMS which I mentioned she sent on thursday finally found its way into my singtel mms inbox webpage. Any ideas why it wasn't sent directly to my phone?
I told her I love it and she said welcome.
triggering Mr Ng HS |
I really don't understand.
Recap: She got upset when I didn't tell her something. I said it's not important. I said for the important things, some of which I made sure she was the first to know.
She replied: "They are not important yet I do not know already.. then why would I know the important ones.."
Very interesting, don't you think?
It's not as if I refuse to tell her, or that I keep secrets from her. It's precisely because they're not important so I didn't tell her. If I remember I WILL tell her about them. But if they're important of course I will tell her asap.
Then she said she's not worth my remembering those things to tell her? I don't understand at all. So I did tell her more. She said I was trying to gek her. That I just have to tell her more, not EVERYTHING? But what if I missed out something? Wouldn't it lead back to this very same issue?
And after all the things I did, she tells me she envies another girl, 'cos of how the guy is treating her? Am I so lousy?
She had school today. I asked if she wanna meet me later. She said she was tired and wants to go home.
She said things which are supposed to be 'confidential' but not important at all, can't I just tell her instead of she being stunned when people thought she knew.
The point is they are not important at all. I don't even have them at the back of my head. If I touch on them yah I'll say, if not they're not mentioned.
Argh I'm repeating myself. I'll just leave with a passage from the #2 issue of GET REAL undergrad magazine they distribute free in school.
Learning to love.
by Larry Lim
To learn to love, I believe, is as important as to love. To know when to give and take is as crucial as giving your whole hearted love. It is easy to go through highs of a relationship, but it is how you face the lows that will eventually define the relationship.
A story that I like to tell my girlfriend: a couple was enjoying a stroll on a beautiful night in a park. Suddenly they heard the sound "quack, quack". "That's a chicken," said the woman. "No, dear, that's a duck." said the guy. "That's a chicken." said the woman. "No dear, chickens go cluck cluck, ducks go quack quack." said the guy. "No, that's a chicken." insisted the woman. The guy thought for a while and then said, "Yes dear you're right. That's a chicken." The woman was then satisfied and both of them happily carried on their stroll.
What's the moral of the story? No, it's not "never fight with a woman", nor is it "never argue with a woman, you can't win!" The moral is that there are many times that a couple starts arguing for something not important at all! It doesn't matter what or who is making that stupid sound, the important issue here is that the couple was initially spending quality time and something as simple as that could have changed the mood. Imagine if both parties don't give in, a quarrel will ensue, most likely other unrelated stuff will be brought up and a 'storm' will begin. It just isn't worth it to spoil a perfect evening and a wonderful relationship over a riduculous "Quack, Quack!"
~
Only this time, she doesn't see this as a not important issue.
~~~
Edited: after midnight 1237am. The MMS which I mentioned she sent on thursday finally found its way into my singtel mms inbox webpage. Any ideas why it wasn't sent directly to my phone?
I told her I love it and she said welcome.
triggering Mr Ng HS |
Thursday, February 10, 2005
CNY day 2
Woke up at 1+pm and played xbox. That's all.
It's still the same. She said she sent me an MMS in the afternoon but I didn't get it, and haven't. Lousy Singtel. Perhaps her mood in the day was different, but when we exchanged smses at night (and still exchanging) she's still the in that same harsh attacking tone. I didn't sms her after lunch break and she said I wasn't thinking of her. Later I smsed her what happened in my day. I told her the people who talked to me and what they talked about. She said I did that to purposely try and 'gek' (antagonise) her.
Then she said she envies lamb because fox apparently tells her everything. That makes me feel very upset. I feel like I'm being compared. Am I not good enough? And she said spiteful things, about not wanting me and wanting to give me away. Why do people say spiteful things? I know. They don't mean it. But it's not as if when those things are said both parties aren't affected. She seldom says nice things about me. I guess I can live with that. Some people struggle in this. But too often than not she's so harsh; her facial expression, her eyes, her tone, her spiteful words. I said I'll learn and improve. She doesn't stop. She continues attacking. But I didn't cry last night. I think it was because the other friends were there. It's also good. Guys shouldn't cry so much, if at all.
Someone tell me what to do?
triggering Mr Ng HS |
Woke up at 1+pm and played xbox. That's all.
It's still the same. She said she sent me an MMS in the afternoon but I didn't get it, and haven't. Lousy Singtel. Perhaps her mood in the day was different, but when we exchanged smses at night (and still exchanging) she's still the in that same harsh attacking tone. I didn't sms her after lunch break and she said I wasn't thinking of her. Later I smsed her what happened in my day. I told her the people who talked to me and what they talked about. She said I did that to purposely try and 'gek' (antagonise) her.
Then she said she envies lamb because fox apparently tells her everything. That makes me feel very upset. I feel like I'm being compared. Am I not good enough? And she said spiteful things, about not wanting me and wanting to give me away. Why do people say spiteful things? I know. They don't mean it. But it's not as if when those things are said both parties aren't affected. She seldom says nice things about me. I guess I can live with that. Some people struggle in this. But too often than not she's so harsh; her facial expression, her eyes, her tone, her spiteful words. I said I'll learn and improve. She doesn't stop. She continues attacking. But I didn't cry last night. I think it was because the other friends were there. It's also good. Guys shouldn't cry so much, if at all.
Someone tell me what to do?
triggering Mr Ng HS |
CNY day 1 continued.
Went out for dinner with bear, fox, lamb and Princess P. We had pizza hut. They then decided to come my house to play mahjong. I don't know how to play. I borrowed bear's xbox and played some football.
It was supposed to be a nice evening. But shortly after Princess P arrived, we talked about something which she didn't know, and she was angry that I didn't tell her. So she became hostile to me from then on. But still so friendly to the rest.
Just not me.
You can't say I didn't try.
Right now it's almost 230am and they're still playing outside, laughing loudly and having a lot of fun. Me? Just soaking in my own pathetic misery in my own room listening to Enigma's Sadness. I wish they would stop and all of us can do something together.
She's laughing so loudly. I went to embrace her earlier and she asked if I wanna learn. I told her not tonight since you're so fierce. She replied I made her fierce.
I feel like crying. I feel like a stranger sometimes. I'll go lie on my bed now.
triggering Mr Ng HS |
Went out for dinner with bear, fox, lamb and Princess P. We had pizza hut. They then decided to come my house to play mahjong. I don't know how to play. I borrowed bear's xbox and played some football.
It was supposed to be a nice evening. But shortly after Princess P arrived, we talked about something which she didn't know, and she was angry that I didn't tell her. So she became hostile to me from then on. But still so friendly to the rest.
Just not me.
You can't say I didn't try.
Right now it's almost 230am and they're still playing outside, laughing loudly and having a lot of fun. Me? Just soaking in my own pathetic misery in my own room listening to Enigma's Sadness. I wish they would stop and all of us can do something together.
She's laughing so loudly. I went to embrace her earlier and she asked if I wanna learn. I told her not tonight since you're so fierce. She replied I made her fierce.
I feel like crying. I feel like a stranger sometimes. I'll go lie on my bed now.
triggering Mr Ng HS |
Wednesday, February 09, 2005
WHY did the chicken cross the road?
To celebrate CHINESE NEW YEAR~!
Yeah woohoo I thought of that I'm the lamest person in the world baby!
~XIN NIAN KUAI LE~
新年快乐！！
学业进步！！
身体健康！！
恭喜发财！！
also summarised into:
万事如意！！
It's a past 2pm now, and I'm back from my CNY visiting! Woke at around 11am because my brother and dasao (sister-in-law) were coming over before we visit waipo (maternal grandma). There we met my ahyi's (mum's younger sis) family. I spent a half hour talking to waigong (maternal grandpa). We talked about how I was graduating in 1.5 years, and how I was afraid of coming out to work. He said wait till I graduate before I get married. I said "of course lah~!" Haha. I think what he meant was I can start to plan and save for marriage when I graduate and work. I then asked him about his life when he was my age, and he told me about the prices and lifestyles, and how he got married with waipo when he was 20 and she was 18. Wow and he is 77 now. Well so after awhile we left. And here I am back now at home.
Let's take a look at my ang bao collection:
(I know some people have the tradition of opening their red packets only after all 15 days, but my tradition is to open mine when I come home.)
Mum: $60
uncle: $60
bro + dasao: $50
waipo: $50
waigong: $50
jiujiu + jiumu (mum's elder bro and wife): $24
ah yi + yi zhang: $20
total: $314
I'm filthy rich baybeh.
Ahh so now I'll just stone at home and see if Princess P wants to go out later. Actually I've so many readings to do, but I'm lazy to get started. My house isn't in a mess, but the boxes haven't been unpacked.
Rabbit was very afraid the first few days and nights, and didn't eat much, but we thought of switching on the lights at night so she wouldn't be so afraid, and maybe it did help her adjust and she's back to normal now. Actually not really. I still find her somewhat withdrawn.
Caught CONSTANTINE last night.
With Princess P and 3 of her good friends. She accused me of not wanting to meet them all the time, saying that I always had excuses. I don't. I love her and I wanna know her good friends too. They were pretty easy to get along with and I think I did quite well interacting with them.
The show's a little deep, especially I'm a teeny weeny xenophobic when it comes to Christian / Catholic stuff (trackback: I mentioned I didn't quite enjoy the newest exorcist movie a few months back.) I didn't fully understand the story, but it's nice watching angels and devils, heaven and hell, and of course Keanu Reeves that ultra-suave actor. Special effects were cool too.
We parted with her friends after the show, and Princess P and I sat at her void deck and continue talking till about 415am. Then I drove back home, showered, and watched a little tv and bummed in my room till 6am. And slept.
So I guess my parents will live a little longer now I did my part in the 守岁 tradition huh? For the uninitiated, it's about the children having to stay up as long as they can on the eve of the Chinese New Year so as to prolong the lives of their parents. Think that's about right.
So now I'll go read the papers and wait for time to pass. I'll try to update this more often but till then, have a smashing holiday season and do remember to do your necessary homework (wet blanket or superstitious up to you, but don't use CNY as an excuse to neglect your work. When it piles on you're dead.
Oh no I'm not supposed to say dead. Oh no I did it again! Have fun~! =p
triggering Mr Ng HS |
To celebrate CHINESE NEW YEAR~!
Yeah woohoo I thought of that I'm the lamest person in the world baby!
~XIN NIAN KUAI LE~
新年快乐！！
学业进步！！
身体健康！！
恭喜发财！！
also summarised into:
万事如意！！
It's a past 2pm now, and I'm back from my CNY visiting! Woke at around 11am because my brother and dasao (sister-in-law) were coming over before we visit waipo (maternal grandma). There we met my ahyi's (mum's younger sis) family. I spent a half hour talking to waigong (maternal grandpa). We talked about how I was graduating in 1.5 years, and how I was afraid of coming out to work. He said wait till I graduate before I get married. I said "of course lah~!" Haha. I think what he meant was I can start to plan and save for marriage when I graduate and work. I then asked him about his life when he was my age, and he told me about the prices and lifestyles, and how he got married with waipo when he was 20 and she was 18. Wow and he is 77 now. Well so after awhile we left. And here I am back now at home.
Let's take a look at my ang bao collection:
(I know some people have the tradition of opening their red packets only after all 15 days, but my tradition is to open mine when I come home.)
Mum: $60
uncle: $60
bro + dasao: $50
waipo: $50
waigong: $50
jiujiu + jiumu (mum's elder bro and wife): $24
ah yi + yi zhang: $20
total: $314
I'm filthy rich baybeh.
Ahh so now I'll just stone at home and see if Princess P wants to go out later. Actually I've so many readings to do, but I'm lazy to get started. My house isn't in a mess, but the boxes haven't been unpacked.
Rabbit was very afraid the first few days and nights, and didn't eat much, but we thought of switching on the lights at night so she wouldn't be so afraid, and maybe it did help her adjust and she's back to normal now. Actually not really. I still find her somewhat withdrawn.
Caught CONSTANTINE last night.
With Princess P and 3 of her good friends. She accused me of not wanting to meet them all the time, saying that I always had excuses. I don't. I love her and I wanna know her good friends too. They were pretty easy to get along with and I think I did quite well interacting with them.
The show's a little deep, especially I'm a teeny weeny xenophobic when it comes to Christian / Catholic stuff (trackback: I mentioned I didn't quite enjoy the newest exorcist movie a few months back.) I didn't fully understand the story, but it's nice watching angels and devils, heaven and hell, and of course Keanu Reeves that ultra-suave actor. Special effects were cool too.
We parted with her friends after the show, and Princess P and I sat at her void deck and continue talking till about 415am. Then I drove back home, showered, and watched a little tv and bummed in my room till 6am. And slept.
So I guess my parents will live a little longer now I did my part in the 守岁 tradition huh? For the uninitiated, it's about the children having to stay up as long as they can on the eve of the Chinese New Year so as to prolong the lives of their parents. Think that's about right.
So now I'll go read the papers and wait for time to pass. I'll try to update this more often but till then, have a smashing holiday season and do remember to do your necessary homework (wet blanket or superstitious up to you, but don't use CNY as an excuse to neglect your work. When it piles on you're dead.
Oh no I'm not supposed to say dead. Oh no I did it again! Have fun~! =p
triggering Mr Ng HS |
Tuesday, February 01, 2005
Shifting II
It's close to 1130am now and the man's coming over soon to remove my cable stuff and then we're going over to the new place to try and get it up. I've already printed whatever stuff I needed for tomorrow so the internet connection is not as important as the cable tv I'll be missing later, more importantly the match between Arsenal and Man Utd at 355am in about 15hours time.
This is also probably the last entry I'll type at this old shack of mine. I haven't packed my clothes and other stuffs yet. So what will happen I imagine is that I'll just travel to and fro and sleep here and there until I shift everything there. It's just nice as well since there's some plumbing problems at the back door kitchen area so the rabbit can't move over as yet.
It's February already. I slept at midnight last night, because I was a little tired, and because I told Princess P not to be late for classes and she said she told me to sleep early but I never seem to listen. So I guess that's a start. Woke at 1030am though.
I'm scared.
I'm scared that my dad will drop by anytime. I think he's at my brother's place now.
And as for Princess P, I think we got into some form of trouble again.
It's a shitty feeling. Last night Uncle was explaining to me what's gonna happen for today. He took 30minutes to spell out what I would have done in 5. I did my best to hide my frustration but I think Mum could tell. She knows me better obviously.
I gotta go pack some stuff to bring over to study, because I'll be there the whole day supervising the serviceman.
It's February already.
triggering Mr Ng HS |
It's close to 1130am now and the man's coming over soon to remove my cable stuff and then we're going over to the new place to try and get it up. I've already printed whatever stuff I needed for tomorrow so the internet connection is not as important as the cable tv I'll be missing later, more importantly the match between Arsenal and Man Utd at 355am in about 15hours time.
This is also probably the last entry I'll type at this old shack of mine. I haven't packed my clothes and other stuffs yet. So what will happen I imagine is that I'll just travel to and fro and sleep here and there until I shift everything there. It's just nice as well since there's some plumbing problems at the back door kitchen area so the rabbit can't move over as yet.
It's February already. I slept at midnight last night, because I was a little tired, and because I told Princess P not to be late for classes and she said she told me to sleep early but I never seem to listen. So I guess that's a start. Woke at 1030am though.
I'm scared.
I'm scared that my dad will drop by anytime. I think he's at my brother's place now.
And as for Princess P, I think we got into some form of trouble again.
It's a shitty feeling. Last night Uncle was explaining to me what's gonna happen for today. He took 30minutes to spell out what I would have done in 5. I did my best to hide my frustration but I think Mum could tell. She knows me better obviously.
I gotta go pack some stuff to bring over to study, because I'll be there the whole day supervising the serviceman.
It's February already.
triggering Mr Ng HS |