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Sunday, December 26, 2004
A week of memorable events
Wednesday: Science Centre
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I crashed another mentor's school outing at Science Centre, 'cos I knew all the mentors there and I was planning to go Science Centre soon anyway. We had a lot of fun! The planetgames section was pretty boring though. It was a showcase of old games, like some 10 years ago, which was why the mentors could identify with them while the mentees never heard of them before.
Thursday: Gift Exchange
Had a nice cozy gathering at a fellow mentor's place. We had a gift exchange and also a birthday celebration. It was very fun to meet up with my fellow mentors again, especially since we haven't (or I rather) been talking much.
Friday: Christmas eve with Princess P
Past few days, I looked high and low but couldn't find a christmas gift for her. THEN I saw the most perfect present. But I found a little cat print on it. Princess P doesn't like cats. So the present wasn't perfect afterall. And you know these things, after finding one which you thought was so beautiful, somehow every other gift you see doesn't match up to your expectation anymore. So on thursday night I told her I didn't get a present for her due to this, and wah she got angry and sad. =p I went to buy my '2nd choice present' on christmas eve itself before reaching her house. Wanted to surprise her, but she called me while I was outside. Darn! Maybe nobody can understand my thinking of not wanting to buy any gift just to make up a present, but well I guess it IS christmas, and anybody who places this holiday with importance would expect a gift. Anyhoo eventually I got a gift so that's that. And she likes it in the end. =)
So we reached Orchard road around 5pm, had dinner, and then looked for her brother, who was working as a surveyor at a taxi stand. Both of us were planning to work too, but she was too tired these few days and we called it off. Pay rate was $10 per hour. Wow wee. Too bad though. And I think walking around is more fun. =)
She then thought there was a parade, but apparently it was at 10pm. We walked down to HMV and we took neoprints. We walked to Plaza Sing and on the way stopped at a food court to rest. At Plaza Sing we rested even longer, sitting at the steps and watching people walk by and there was a group of people who came caroling. I don't really feel a christmas mood, especially when the decorations are all so poor these days. I remember 10 years ago when Plaza Sing was still called YAOHAN the place was brilliantly set up with giant Snowman and everything Christmas. And hotels like Goodwood park? Scotts etc were all expensively decorated. Now? There are just lights, and one or two figurines.
We then took a train to city hall so we could count down at Esplanade. We stopped at the bay beside the huge Merlion. Managed to find a seat so two of us squeezed onto that small little space, and sat there. It was around 11pm. Some 'tourguide' beside us was telling two old women that there would be fireworks later. Princess P and I smirked at each other. Yah right fireworks. 2minutes before midnight (according to my watch haha) we stood by the railing and enjoyed the breezes in our faces. And we counted down with 10 seconds left (or rather she was counting and jumping about) and we wished each other merry christmas!
Yup, that was my first christmas countdown ever. I didn't know people countdown Christmas haha. Isn't it funny. Really enjoyable and memorable. Then as we enjoy each other's company after midnight, I remembered that we needed to catch the train back to Plaza Sing, because both of us don't know how to walk back there. Haha talk about a party pooper.
We had a small bite at Long John Silvers at Plaza Sing, and then went to collect our movie ticket. We were watching Meet the Fockers. Oh yeah I like Ben Stiller. Stupid Fella.
Spent some time in the arcade, and then found ourselves sitting on the floor waiting for entrance. It was this time when Princess P felt a little sleepy. And we were betting who was gonna be the first one to 'faint' first. Haha.
The show was great! Of course! All lame shows are great! It's amusing to see Dustin Hoffman and Babara Streisand acting comedian roles.
It was 4am when the show ended. Princess P was very tired. Me? I'm still ok. And you know some people can't seem to think properly when they're tired. We walked back down Orchard Road, and finally found a nice seat outside Mariott Hotel. She refused to sleep but kept dozing off. It was then I celebrated Christmas by myself. Haha. We left the place for the train station and waited for the ride. On the train she went to sleep, and her head hit my nose once when she woke. But funny how she can't remember it now?!?!?! I walked her home and she was so tired she didn't say anything. I then took a cab back. That was close to 8am. And shower and sleep I went.
My very first Christmas celebration. My first with her too. =) My Christmas wish is to have her spend Christmas with me next year too. We'll see how it goes. Heh.
Merry Christmas everyone! Happy holidays!
triggering Mr Ng HS |
Wednesday: Science Centre
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I crashed another mentor's school outing at Science Centre, 'cos I knew all the mentors there and I was planning to go Science Centre soon anyway. We had a lot of fun! The planetgames section was pretty boring though. It was a showcase of old games, like some 10 years ago, which was why the mentors could identify with them while the mentees never heard of them before.
Thursday: Gift Exchange
Had a nice cozy gathering at a fellow mentor's place. We had a gift exchange and also a birthday celebration. It was very fun to meet up with my fellow mentors again, especially since we haven't (or I rather) been talking much.
Friday: Christmas eve with Princess P
Past few days, I looked high and low but couldn't find a christmas gift for her. THEN I saw the most perfect present. But I found a little cat print on it. Princess P doesn't like cats. So the present wasn't perfect afterall. And you know these things, after finding one which you thought was so beautiful, somehow every other gift you see doesn't match up to your expectation anymore. So on thursday night I told her I didn't get a present for her due to this, and wah she got angry and sad. =p I went to buy my '2nd choice present' on christmas eve itself before reaching her house. Wanted to surprise her, but she called me while I was outside. Darn! Maybe nobody can understand my thinking of not wanting to buy any gift just to make up a present, but well I guess it IS christmas, and anybody who places this holiday with importance would expect a gift. Anyhoo eventually I got a gift so that's that. And she likes it in the end. =)
So we reached Orchard road around 5pm, had dinner, and then looked for her brother, who was working as a surveyor at a taxi stand. Both of us were planning to work too, but she was too tired these few days and we called it off. Pay rate was $10 per hour. Wow wee. Too bad though. And I think walking around is more fun. =)
She then thought there was a parade, but apparently it was at 10pm. We walked down to HMV and we took neoprints. We walked to Plaza Sing and on the way stopped at a food court to rest. At Plaza Sing we rested even longer, sitting at the steps and watching people walk by and there was a group of people who came caroling. I don't really feel a christmas mood, especially when the decorations are all so poor these days. I remember 10 years ago when Plaza Sing was still called YAOHAN the place was brilliantly set up with giant Snowman and everything Christmas. And hotels like Goodwood park? Scotts etc were all expensively decorated. Now? There are just lights, and one or two figurines.
We then took a train to city hall so we could count down at Esplanade. We stopped at the bay beside the huge Merlion. Managed to find a seat so two of us squeezed onto that small little space, and sat there. It was around 11pm. Some 'tourguide' beside us was telling two old women that there would be fireworks later. Princess P and I smirked at each other. Yah right fireworks. 2minutes before midnight (according to my watch haha) we stood by the railing and enjoyed the breezes in our faces. And we counted down with 10 seconds left (or rather she was counting and jumping about) and we wished each other merry christmas!
Yup, that was my first christmas countdown ever. I didn't know people countdown Christmas haha. Isn't it funny. Really enjoyable and memorable. Then as we enjoy each other's company after midnight, I remembered that we needed to catch the train back to Plaza Sing, because both of us don't know how to walk back there. Haha talk about a party pooper.
We had a small bite at Long John Silvers at Plaza Sing, and then went to collect our movie ticket. We were watching Meet the Fockers. Oh yeah I like Ben Stiller. Stupid Fella.
Spent some time in the arcade, and then found ourselves sitting on the floor waiting for entrance. It was this time when Princess P felt a little sleepy. And we were betting who was gonna be the first one to 'faint' first. Haha.
The show was great! Of course! All lame shows are great! It's amusing to see Dustin Hoffman and Babara Streisand acting comedian roles.
It was 4am when the show ended. Princess P was very tired. Me? I'm still ok. And you know some people can't seem to think properly when they're tired. We walked back down Orchard Road, and finally found a nice seat outside Mariott Hotel. She refused to sleep but kept dozing off. It was then I celebrated Christmas by myself. Haha. We left the place for the train station and waited for the ride. On the train she went to sleep, and her head hit my nose once when she woke. But funny how she can't remember it now?!?!?! I walked her home and she was so tired she didn't say anything. I then took a cab back. That was close to 8am. And shower and sleep I went.
My very first Christmas celebration. My first with her too. =) My Christmas wish is to have her spend Christmas with me next year too. We'll see how it goes. Heh.
Merry Christmas everyone! Happy holidays!
triggering Mr Ng HS |
Tuesday, December 21, 2004
The Tang Yuan strikes back.
In this special collector's edition, you will find out the meaning of the tang yuan, and about the author's trip to Princess P's palace. Also, there's a bonus section at the end!
Ok it's called Dong1 Zhi4 冬至.
From the web: During the Lantern Festival, people eat tang yuan. Tang yuan are round balls of sticky rice with different fillings inside. Some are sweet and some are not. The fillings include: black sesame paste, tangerine peel, walnuts, meats, fish, and vegetables. It is important to eat tang yuan during the Lantern Festival because they represent family reunion and unity, and their shape is the same as the full moon of that night.
From my tone you can deduce I had a great evening. Because Princess P said her mum invited me over for dinner and tang yuan. I wasn't sure if I wanted to go, because Princess P and I were still stuck in a situation in which we both didn't know what to do. But then her brother smsed me saying their mum already cooked my share and I said yah I'll be there.
I didn't know how to drive to her workplace, so I met her a little at the middle and fetched her back. Reason being I didn't wanna meet her at her void deck and have only 5minutes before we go up. Such is our situation I thought spending a little time with her first might help. But the car journey wasn't very pleasant. And after I parked the car we had the most silent of walks, up the lift, and to her unit.
We soon warmed up and things got better. Dinner was excellent! I ate with the whole family! It was very nice vegetables ( Both types I don't know the names, but they just happen to be the ones I like. ) + corn, wu xiang (I've no idea what's that in english. Some meat pieces.), and chicken! Soup was corn and potato. The children, including Princess P, has fussy tastebuds and they think the chicken isn't nice enough, the soup isn't tasty enough, the meat isn't blah blah, the that isn't bleeh bleeh, the doo isn't dong dong, the ding isn't dang dang. You get the idea. Without sounding like a ma pi jing (horse fart spirit? Ok meaning someone who licks boots.), I really found the food tasty. And it's been a long time since I had a proper meal. Why? Another story for another time. It's nice sitting (albeit a little cramped) around a table with 6 other people eating dinner. It just feels like my own family. An embarassing incident was I dropped a vegetable on the table, after which I picked up of course. I blame it on the slippery spoon. I also don't know why auntie gave me fork and spoon when everyone used chopsticks. I think it's because Princess P doesn't use chopsticks. I forgot to tell her about this. Heh. I think using chopsticks will be easier when sharing food. Easier to 'kiap' mah.
After dinner, she, her younger brother, sister, the 4 year old baby and me packed ourselves in her room to watch television. I was quite surprised when the little girl just treated me like a pillow, and then later played with me and even hugged me. But I feel very happy inside because it shows that she likes me (or at least doesn't dislike me). We also looked through many photos, although there were one or two awkward moments when we saw particular pictures of the past. All this happened while the tv was on channel 8 and the brother was playing maple story. Wah the graphics so cute! I also wanna play.
Soon it was time to eat tang yuan. I insisted on taking the bowl with 2 instead of 3 rice balls, because frankly I was very full (You should see how much rice she gave me for dinner and yet she said it's little, and I had to finish all.), but her mum insisted insisted (yah man, 2 x insisted is more than 1 x insisted) on giving me 3. And the soup itself was very nice. We could smell it from our room. Princess P and I had a laugh because we ourselves tried to make tang yuan a few days before and apparently there wasn't much aroma hahaha. We then played scissors paper stone with the little girl, and had a nice chat. It was then around 1045pm and I decided to leave, 'cos it was late and I feel as if I was disturbing them. The sister wanted to shower but hasn't done so yet! But in a way it's because she's having fun with a lot of us, and I'm really glad they all seem to like me and enjoy my company. I truly have a lot of fun when I visit her house too. Her father also told her to get me a glass of water. I'm not sure if I got this right, but her sister said it's the first time her father said this to anyone. Wow I'm so touched anyway. Did I mention the last time I was there he told me to drive carefully on the way home? Princess P said he snatched her lines. hahaha. The amusing thing was, Princess P passed me the drink and I took a couple of sips, and offered her to drink. She finished the whole glass in an instant. Her sister said she's wu yao ke jiu (beyond medicinal cure) HAHA. But seriously she's always like that. More recently she finished the ribena before I could touch the cup. Anyway main point is that her family members are great.
So it's time to go and I asked Princess P to walk with me to the staircase, because I had a surprise gift for her. It was a special day. The gift was a little blue soft handphone pouch with smileys on it. The pouch was too small in my opinion to put any handphone. But I didn't buy that for her to put her handphone. I used that as a container to put what I wrote on a piece of coloured paper. The pouch was a tight fit one so it was perfect. She later smsed that she liked it. Anyway, she was nice enough to walk me downstairs. We chatted along the way, clearing the miscommunications and talked about how we can make this relationship better. An hour zoomed by just like that. We both wished we could talk longer but it was really late, so we parted. A wonderful evening came to an end.
Bonus section:
Ok. In case any of you strangers hopped on to my blog, here's a sneak preview of how I look like, or at least how a 4 year old girl thinks I look like on a piece of paper. The girl stays in Princess P's place during weekdays before returning for the weekend to her parents.
Everyone asked why is there an onion on my head. She said it was my hair. Eh I don't even put gel on my hair to make it stand. It's just a lump of mess, but it's not pointed! I still drew stars and wrote hao and good to make her happy, and she clearly was overjoyed. Actually this picture isn't that bad. The one where she drew Princess P... =x hahaha... was really hideous. Too bad I don't have the evidence to show you guys.
Hope you enjoy this special collector's edition. These moments will remain in my heart. =)
triggering Mr Ng HS |
In this special collector's edition, you will find out the meaning of the tang yuan, and about the author's trip to Princess P's palace. Also, there's a bonus section at the end!
Ok it's called Dong1 Zhi4 冬至.
From the web: During the Lantern Festival, people eat tang yuan. Tang yuan are round balls of sticky rice with different fillings inside. Some are sweet and some are not. The fillings include: black sesame paste, tangerine peel, walnuts, meats, fish, and vegetables. It is important to eat tang yuan during the Lantern Festival because they represent family reunion and unity, and their shape is the same as the full moon of that night.
From my tone you can deduce I had a great evening. Because Princess P said her mum invited me over for dinner and tang yuan. I wasn't sure if I wanted to go, because Princess P and I were still stuck in a situation in which we both didn't know what to do. But then her brother smsed me saying their mum already cooked my share and I said yah I'll be there.
I didn't know how to drive to her workplace, so I met her a little at the middle and fetched her back. Reason being I didn't wanna meet her at her void deck and have only 5minutes before we go up. Such is our situation I thought spending a little time with her first might help. But the car journey wasn't very pleasant. And after I parked the car we had the most silent of walks, up the lift, and to her unit.
We soon warmed up and things got better. Dinner was excellent! I ate with the whole family! It was very nice vegetables ( Both types I don't know the names, but they just happen to be the ones I like. ) + corn, wu xiang (I've no idea what's that in english. Some meat pieces.), and chicken! Soup was corn and potato. The children, including Princess P, has fussy tastebuds and they think the chicken isn't nice enough, the soup isn't tasty enough, the meat isn't blah blah, the that isn't bleeh bleeh, the doo isn't dong dong, the ding isn't dang dang. You get the idea. Without sounding like a ma pi jing (horse fart spirit? Ok meaning someone who licks boots.), I really found the food tasty. And it's been a long time since I had a proper meal. Why? Another story for another time. It's nice sitting (albeit a little cramped) around a table with 6 other people eating dinner. It just feels like my own family. An embarassing incident was I dropped a vegetable on the table, after which I picked up of course. I blame it on the slippery spoon. I also don't know why auntie gave me fork and spoon when everyone used chopsticks. I think it's because Princess P doesn't use chopsticks. I forgot to tell her about this. Heh. I think using chopsticks will be easier when sharing food. Easier to 'kiap' mah.
After dinner, she, her younger brother, sister, the 4 year old baby and me packed ourselves in her room to watch television. I was quite surprised when the little girl just treated me like a pillow, and then later played with me and even hugged me. But I feel very happy inside because it shows that she likes me (or at least doesn't dislike me). We also looked through many photos, although there were one or two awkward moments when we saw particular pictures of the past. All this happened while the tv was on channel 8 and the brother was playing maple story. Wah the graphics so cute! I also wanna play.
Soon it was time to eat tang yuan. I insisted on taking the bowl with 2 instead of 3 rice balls, because frankly I was very full (You should see how much rice she gave me for dinner and yet she said it's little, and I had to finish all.), but her mum insisted insisted (yah man, 2 x insisted is more than 1 x insisted) on giving me 3. And the soup itself was very nice. We could smell it from our room. Princess P and I had a laugh because we ourselves tried to make tang yuan a few days before and apparently there wasn't much aroma hahaha. We then played scissors paper stone with the little girl, and had a nice chat. It was then around 1045pm and I decided to leave, 'cos it was late and I feel as if I was disturbing them. The sister wanted to shower but hasn't done so yet! But in a way it's because she's having fun with a lot of us, and I'm really glad they all seem to like me and enjoy my company. I truly have a lot of fun when I visit her house too. Her father also told her to get me a glass of water. I'm not sure if I got this right, but her sister said it's the first time her father said this to anyone. Wow I'm so touched anyway. Did I mention the last time I was there he told me to drive carefully on the way home? Princess P said he snatched her lines. hahaha. The amusing thing was, Princess P passed me the drink and I took a couple of sips, and offered her to drink. She finished the whole glass in an instant. Her sister said she's wu yao ke jiu (beyond medicinal cure) HAHA. But seriously she's always like that. More recently she finished the ribena before I could touch the cup. Anyway main point is that her family members are great.
So it's time to go and I asked Princess P to walk with me to the staircase, because I had a surprise gift for her. It was a special day. The gift was a little blue soft handphone pouch with smileys on it. The pouch was too small in my opinion to put any handphone. But I didn't buy that for her to put her handphone. I used that as a container to put what I wrote on a piece of coloured paper. The pouch was a tight fit one so it was perfect. She later smsed that she liked it. Anyway, she was nice enough to walk me downstairs. We chatted along the way, clearing the miscommunications and talked about how we can make this relationship better. An hour zoomed by just like that. We both wished we could talk longer but it was really late, so we parted. A wonderful evening came to an end.
Bonus section:
Ok. In case any of you strangers hopped on to my blog, here's a sneak preview of how I look like, or at least how a 4 year old girl thinks I look like on a piece of paper. The girl stays in Princess P's place during weekdays before returning for the weekend to her parents.
Everyone asked why is there an onion on my head. She said it was my hair. Eh I don't even put gel on my hair to make it stand. It's just a lump of mess, but it's not pointed! I still drew stars and wrote hao and good to make her happy, and she clearly was overjoyed. Actually this picture isn't that bad. The one where she drew Princess P... =x hahaha... was really hideous. Too bad I don't have the evidence to show you guys.
Hope you enjoy this special collector's edition. These moments will remain in my heart. =)
triggering Mr Ng HS |
I showed her the picture and the words I wrote. She said it's very nice and sweet, but where to find a place like that.
I said you can find it everyday and everytime, in your heart.
She said "too bad you can't control the heart, can't tell it to stay that way and it will.."
I don't know what the 'you' refers to, is it me or is it her. Either way it doesn't sound nice.
I think she doesn't understand what I'm trying to say.
triggering Mr Ng HS |
I said you can find it everyday and everytime, in your heart.
She said "too bad you can't control the heart, can't tell it to stay that way and it will.."
I don't know what the 'you' refers to, is it me or is it her. Either way it doesn't sound nice.
I think she doesn't understand what I'm trying to say.
triggering Mr Ng HS |
Monday, December 20, 2004
Tough times
Hey. It's time to show the irritating sensitive side of me. I found this picture and I think it's nice. I also found this music to go along with it, which I think it's appropriate describing my mood now. I don't know who drew it, but I thank you it's a lovely picture. To complement the picture, I wrote some chinese words. Quickly translated it means stars extinguish, but never my love for you.
Princess P wrote a long email saying she wanna spend christmas eve with me, saying that she loves me and that I'm someone special in her life. But she also mentioned a lot of things which upset her, which I personally felt it was uncalled for. Then again, how many times have I myself thought that she has upset me. Perhaps I should not be taking heart into so many things.
There was a meeting today at 12pm. Initially I wasn't part of it but I got arrowed and I was told to attend. I told her I don't feel like going, and after last night's phone episode I just didn't feel like doing anything. So I turned my handphone to silent (no vibration) and went to sleep, knowing that they will call me later regarding the meeting. Yes I was being an irresponsible asshole, but it didn't matter to me. When I woke at 1pm, there were many missed calls, including Princess P. She also smsed me at 1145am asking me if I was on my way to the meeting. I came online and read her email, and replied it, and then I smsed her I just woke up. That was already 130pm.
She asked how come I wasn't at the meeting. I told her I already told the IC I wasn't going. She said she's at the meeting place now and feel like crying when she found out I wasn't there. I asked her why she was there because she wasn't part of the committee. She said she called me so many times and I didn't answer. I told her I was sleeping. She said 'but you told me your hp will still sound when I call you if you're sleeping', and I said yes but not this time because I knew the committee people will call me. She said she thought I fainted or something happened, and she took half day off from her work to go to the meeting, so that she can see me. I told her I appreciate her concern, but what she did didn't make sense. If I had fainted, I wouldn't be at the meeting, so she couldn't have seen me. If I was at the meeting, I'd have messaged her after I woke up before I went for the meeting. She then said she's an idiot for thinking that way. All this time her tone of voice was so harsh, I myself felt like crying.
The meeting ended at around 240pm. But she stayed with 2 more friends and chatted till about 7pm. I'm so jealous. I wish I could have her all by myself and talk to her in a cafe too. We were supposed to go out together tonight. I don't know what happened. I'm depressed, because I don't want this to happen. One day we're happy, and the next day we're like this. It's not healthy at all. I don't know what to do. I can't help it when I get upset so easily. Maybe that's why I fail in relationships. I want this to work. I don't know what to do. I'll try to be less affected by everything.
Yes I think that's the only way I can improve. I'll tone down my emotions, be it happy or sad. That way the mood wouldn't decide to go for a swing every now and then and it wouldn't hurt so bad.
She probably had a nice time at the cafe. I'm just wallowing in self pity. I guess I deserve it. I wanna call her, but I don't know what to say. I think she will come online to check the email I replied. If she doesn't it's ok. I also don't know what to say anymore.
Isn't the music nice? It's on loop so if you like it you can just leave the window open and listen to it, which is what I'm doing now.
Help.
triggering Mr Ng HS |
Hey. It's time to show the irritating sensitive side of me. I found this picture and I think it's nice. I also found this music to go along with it, which I think it's appropriate describing my mood now. I don't know who drew it, but I thank you it's a lovely picture. To complement the picture, I wrote some chinese words. Quickly translated it means stars extinguish, but never my love for you.
Princess P wrote a long email saying she wanna spend christmas eve with me, saying that she loves me and that I'm someone special in her life. But she also mentioned a lot of things which upset her, which I personally felt it was uncalled for. Then again, how many times have I myself thought that she has upset me. Perhaps I should not be taking heart into so many things.
There was a meeting today at 12pm. Initially I wasn't part of it but I got arrowed and I was told to attend. I told her I don't feel like going, and after last night's phone episode I just didn't feel like doing anything. So I turned my handphone to silent (no vibration) and went to sleep, knowing that they will call me later regarding the meeting. Yes I was being an irresponsible asshole, but it didn't matter to me. When I woke at 1pm, there were many missed calls, including Princess P. She also smsed me at 1145am asking me if I was on my way to the meeting. I came online and read her email, and replied it, and then I smsed her I just woke up. That was already 130pm.
She asked how come I wasn't at the meeting. I told her I already told the IC I wasn't going. She said she's at the meeting place now and feel like crying when she found out I wasn't there. I asked her why she was there because she wasn't part of the committee. She said she called me so many times and I didn't answer. I told her I was sleeping. She said 'but you told me your hp will still sound when I call you if you're sleeping', and I said yes but not this time because I knew the committee people will call me. She said she thought I fainted or something happened, and she took half day off from her work to go to the meeting, so that she can see me. I told her I appreciate her concern, but what she did didn't make sense. If I had fainted, I wouldn't be at the meeting, so she couldn't have seen me. If I was at the meeting, I'd have messaged her after I woke up before I went for the meeting. She then said she's an idiot for thinking that way. All this time her tone of voice was so harsh, I myself felt like crying.
The meeting ended at around 240pm. But she stayed with 2 more friends and chatted till about 7pm. I'm so jealous. I wish I could have her all by myself and talk to her in a cafe too. We were supposed to go out together tonight. I don't know what happened. I'm depressed, because I don't want this to happen. One day we're happy, and the next day we're like this. It's not healthy at all. I don't know what to do. I can't help it when I get upset so easily. Maybe that's why I fail in relationships. I want this to work. I don't know what to do. I'll try to be less affected by everything.
Yes I think that's the only way I can improve. I'll tone down my emotions, be it happy or sad. That way the mood wouldn't decide to go for a swing every now and then and it wouldn't hurt so bad.
She probably had a nice time at the cafe. I'm just wallowing in self pity. I guess I deserve it. I wanna call her, but I don't know what to say. I think she will come online to check the email I replied. If she doesn't it's ok. I also don't know what to say anymore.
Isn't the music nice? It's on loop so if you like it you can just leave the window open and listen to it, which is what I'm doing now.
Help.
triggering Mr Ng HS |
Sunday, December 19, 2004
=(
Again.
Just got off the phone with her. During the conversation she was replying an sms to her friend. She then talked about how christmas eve is special because they get to count down (I didn't even know people count down for Christmas.) and Christmas day itself is just like any other day. She also mentioned how Christmas is a time to meet up with friends especially those not in often contact.
I know I don't have the custom of celebrating Christmas, but she doesn't seem at all keen to wanna be with me. She said she may be meeting her friends for both nights. In a state of dejection I said ok I'll spend it at home then, and she said something like 'see how'.
What is Christmas? It never meant much to me. Sure, I always look at the orchard road decorations in the news on tv and wish I was there, and I see other countries engulfed in snow and the spirit of giving and love and sharing and whatever there is for this season. I just long to be there building snowmen and shopping for everyone and sitting around a big table eating a feast with your loved ones. But in truth it's just another holiday with good shows on tv. Why, just last year, it was even worse when I got dumped by my girlfriend. I don't even think of Christmas. But this year it seemed different. I hear of Christmas parties though I am never invited, and I myself got involved in a christmas gift exchange to be held next week with my fellow mentors. It's my first gift exchange ever. I also found a girl that I truly love and I thought she can pass me some Christmas spirit and let me spend it with her.
Wrong. =(
I guess I still have a lot to do till being more important to her than her friends.
I feel so depressed. Argh I'm hopeless. I think I seem to be over dependent on her, but it's only because I love her so much.
triggering Mr Ng HS |
Again.
Just got off the phone with her. During the conversation she was replying an sms to her friend. She then talked about how christmas eve is special because they get to count down (I didn't even know people count down for Christmas.) and Christmas day itself is just like any other day. She also mentioned how Christmas is a time to meet up with friends especially those not in often contact.
I know I don't have the custom of celebrating Christmas, but she doesn't seem at all keen to wanna be with me. She said she may be meeting her friends for both nights. In a state of dejection I said ok I'll spend it at home then, and she said something like 'see how'.
What is Christmas? It never meant much to me. Sure, I always look at the orchard road decorations in the news on tv and wish I was there, and I see other countries engulfed in snow and the spirit of giving and love and sharing and whatever there is for this season. I just long to be there building snowmen and shopping for everyone and sitting around a big table eating a feast with your loved ones. But in truth it's just another holiday with good shows on tv. Why, just last year, it was even worse when I got dumped by my girlfriend. I don't even think of Christmas. But this year it seemed different. I hear of Christmas parties though I am never invited, and I myself got involved in a christmas gift exchange to be held next week with my fellow mentors. It's my first gift exchange ever. I also found a girl that I truly love and I thought she can pass me some Christmas spirit and let me spend it with her.
Wrong. =(
I guess I still have a lot to do till being more important to her than her friends.
I feel so depressed. Argh I'm hopeless. I think I seem to be over dependent on her, but it's only because I love her so much.
triggering Mr Ng HS |
Food
Princess P has been very nice to me these few days. =) She feels guilty about how she treated me like a stranger during the camp. Haha. We've had a lot of fun blowing up our kitchen making barley drink, tang yuan (glutinous rice balls), and popiah, and they all taste great!
Meanwhile I also fried calamari and fish fillet pieces and although some surface appeared to be a little burnt (just a little), they were yummy and filling. I'm still not sure how much oil to put and how big the flame should be; but it should be better with time.
Other stuff deemed too boring to mention. Gotta be a good boy these few days. Only 6 days to Christmas and I wanna be on Santa's list. =p
triggering Mr Ng HS |
Princess P has been very nice to me these few days. =) She feels guilty about how she treated me like a stranger during the camp. Haha. We've had a lot of fun blowing up our kitchen making barley drink, tang yuan (glutinous rice balls), and popiah, and they all taste great!
Meanwhile I also fried calamari and fish fillet pieces and although some surface appeared to be a little burnt (just a little), they were yummy and filling. I'm still not sure how much oil to put and how big the flame should be; but it should be better with time.
Other stuff deemed too boring to mention. Gotta be a good boy these few days. Only 6 days to Christmas and I wanna be on Santa's list. =p
triggering Mr Ng HS |
Thursday, December 16, 2004
Happy
I'm so happy. A friend complimented me! This is worth taking down.
He asked if I was attached.
friend: r u attached?????
friend: wah thats the most burning doubt i have abt u man
me: why man
me: you interested in me or what
friend: u say 1st
me: 1st
friend: U really #!$%^&#^$! (words have been censored because this blog is a family channel)
~ ~ ~
friend: if u dun have gal fren
friend: i m VERY SURPRISED
me: how come
friend: think gals will melt seeing u!
me: huh
me: you gay? hahahahahaha
friend: i m not a gal
friend: so i wont melt
me: you fever?
friend: wat the hell r u thinking!
friend: no lah
friend: suan le
me: haha you also not bad wad
friend: it was meant to b a compliment
me: thanks
friend: dun read too much into it
me: everyone has their own strengths and weaknessess
me: and there will be people who come along and appreciate them
friend: eh
friend: haha
friend: no problems wif that
friend: no lah
friend: personally, crap aside
friend: i think u were really good in camp survivor
friend: helpin out wif almost everything
me: hey thanks
me: but everyone did help out one way or another right
~
Wow I feel so appreciated.
=)
=)
=)
triggering Mr Ng HS |
I'm so happy. A friend complimented me! This is worth taking down.
He asked if I was attached.
friend: r u attached?????
friend: wah thats the most burning doubt i have abt u man
me: why man
me: you interested in me or what
friend: u say 1st
me: 1st
friend: U really #!$%^&#^$! (words have been censored because this blog is a family channel)
~ ~ ~
friend: if u dun have gal fren
friend: i m VERY SURPRISED
me: how come
friend: think gals will melt seeing u!
me: huh
me: you gay? hahahahahaha
friend: i m not a gal
friend: so i wont melt
me: you fever?
friend: wat the hell r u thinking!
friend: no lah
friend: suan le
me: haha you also not bad wad
friend: it was meant to b a compliment
me: thanks
friend: dun read too much into it
me: everyone has their own strengths and weaknessess
me: and there will be people who come along and appreciate them
friend: eh
friend: haha
friend: no problems wif that
friend: no lah
friend: personally, crap aside
friend: i think u were really good in camp survivor
friend: helpin out wif almost everything
me: hey thanks
me: but everyone did help out one way or another right
~
Wow I feel so appreciated.
=)
=)
=)
triggering Mr Ng HS |
Wednesday, December 15, 2004
Camp Survivor misc photos
(sorry but this page will take forever to load if your connection is slow)
This is the tshirt everyone wore for the camp.
Seen it.
Made it.
Part of it.
Smp camp 04.
The remaining black gibberish on the right apparently are letters inverted / reflected.
In case you were wondering why our mouth shapes were like that, it's because someone suggested to shout "survitor" (Participants are called survivors. Game ICs, facilitators the rest etc are called survitors") for the camera.
Building sandcastles as the sun sets. The objective later was to bomb the other tribes' while protecting our own.
Roads are not owned by our grandfathers now. They are owned by peacocks.
View from palawan beach.
I really loved this sight. I was wishing I had a camera then. I'm glad my friend has the same taste and snapped it.
Tribe mailboxes. You know, like in the show Survivor itself they have mailboxes to receive information of challanges and stuffs. For this camp, tribes were given decoder sheets and they are to use them subsequently to decode various messages. Simple messages like "meet in hall 2100hrs" etc.
All of us squeezing to take a camp photo. I think the total strength was about 130 survivors + 50 camp crew.
Remember. They own Sentosa.
~
I miss the camp. And I hope the tourism board will send a cheque to my house after I say this, but I miss Sentosa. I think the last time I was there was in secondary school. I didn't know Sentosa was so beautiful. I really hope to go there soon and just spend the whole day there.
triggering Mr Ng HS |
(sorry but this page will take forever to load if your connection is slow)
This is the tshirt everyone wore for the camp.
Seen it.
Made it.
Part of it.
Smp camp 04.
The remaining black gibberish on the right apparently are letters inverted / reflected.
In case you were wondering why our mouth shapes were like that, it's because someone suggested to shout "survitor" (Participants are called survivors. Game ICs, facilitators the rest etc are called survitors") for the camera.
Building sandcastles as the sun sets. The objective later was to bomb the other tribes' while protecting our own.
Roads are not owned by our grandfathers now. They are owned by peacocks.
View from palawan beach.
I really loved this sight. I was wishing I had a camera then. I'm glad my friend has the same taste and snapped it.
Tribe mailboxes. You know, like in the show Survivor itself they have mailboxes to receive information of challanges and stuffs. For this camp, tribes were given decoder sheets and they are to use them subsequently to decode various messages. Simple messages like "meet in hall 2100hrs" etc.
All of us squeezing to take a camp photo. I think the total strength was about 130 survivors + 50 camp crew.
Remember. They own Sentosa.
~
I miss the camp. And I hope the tourism board will send a cheque to my house after I say this, but I miss Sentosa. I think the last time I was there was in secondary school. I didn't know Sentosa was so beautiful. I really hope to go there soon and just spend the whole day there.
triggering Mr Ng HS |
Sunday, December 12, 2004
Strawberry shortcake
Blueberry Pie
V-I-C-T-O-R-Y
Here's the rough guide:
Day 1
0730-0800 crew gathers
0800-0900 registration
0945-1100 sentosa mass games
1100-1145 workshop 1
1145-1215 camp master brief
1215-1pm lunch
1-145pm workshop 2
2-4pm station games
4-430pm camp > check in
430-6pm Dinner (Survival Cooking)
6-630pm washing up and inspection
630-7pm Briefing for night activities
7-1230am Lashing / Scavenger hunt / Nite Act
1230-130am Camp debrief / supper / shower
230am camp lights out
Day 2
0745-8am wake up
8-845am breakfast
845-9am briefing for day
9-1230pm amazing race / rafting
1230-130pm lunch
130-4pm amazing race / rafting
4-6pm wet games
6-930pm bidding of bonus food (using sea hum) + BBQ
930-12am Finale
1230 camp debrief / supper
Day 3
8am wake up breakfast
845-10am clean up
10-11am workshop 3
11-1130 prize presentation
1130-12 back to SCS
~~
I’m back from camp!! I’ll be doing a chronological recap so it’s gonna be long.
Day 1
Reached Clementi Student Care Service (scs) at around 720am and began to look through the logistics and helped pack the stuff to load up. My other 2 crew team mates claimed they were early and were sitting in the office (“blowing air con”). Funny right? We were told to reach earlier than the rest because we need to help in the packing, so of course we should go to the storeroom, which they didn’t.
After registration we were separated into 8 different groups, which was later on known to us to be Tribe Reese (Pronounced ree-say). We played whacko at the void deck and everyone introduced themselves. I knew most of the mentors beforehand but most of their mentees appeared to be very quiet so the whacko game was very boring. But as the day went by everyone opened up more and I was so happy when a male mentee began to talk more to me and smiled more often. My mentee was kinda shy too. He told me he didn’t want to make more friends. I told him just get to know everyone better first.
So we reached the camp site and we did mass ice breakers and were told of the camp rules and how it was a SURVIVOR camp. My tribe won the best cheer thanks to a mentee leading the way with his para-para like movements and our modified rendition of the victory cheer (see title). As a reward we were given forks and spoons for lunch while the rest had to make do with tearing off their Styrofoam boxes as makeshift utensils. Lunch was packed lunch with meat, egg and vegetables. My mentee thought it was very nice. I thought so too. Station games carried off very smoothly and was a huge success. Dinner was survival cooking. They gave us Bunsen burners and mass tins, packet noodles, canned mushrooms and beans and some stalks of vegetables. So I fed myself with the mushrooms and beans. They put so much MSG in the mass tin! No noodles for me. I then volunteered to cook eggs for everyone. The heating took up a lot of time and everyone complained my eggs were not hard boiled enough boo hoo hoo. But our tribe enjoyed ourselves so much. Everyone was already clearing up and 10minutes before gathering our tribe was still sitting down nonchalantly heating up food to eat!!
The night was equally great. We learnt knots and lashing, and although like my mentee, I thought it was very boring but I did learn a few tricks. And then we looked for missing jigsaw puzzle pieces in the dark. We found 35 of 36 pieces, but actually 18 of them belonged to another tribe. But our team cooperated very nicely and all of us were very enthusiastic about it. Night Act wasn’t as good as I expected, but the tribe wanted me to walk as the last man, which by itself was a trial of courage for me because I am afraid of the dark. Throughout the beginning I kept looking back and I also walked side by side with the 2nd last man, a mentee, and he actually told me there’s nothing to be afraid of. On the way I met Princess P in the trail! And I felt better =)
We ended day 1 with milo and biscuits. The tribe has just warmed up with one another. We then had mentor debrief and camp crew debrief (both of which I’m a part of) and we slept at a little past 3am. That night I looked forward to day 2 so much, I lay on my sleeping bag and couldn’t wait for 7am to come so I’d wake up officially. I slept and woke many times, only to press my watch light and see how early it was and not time to wake. I just couldn’t wait for the camp to re-start!
Day 2
Breakfast was milo and bread (with spread) and hard boiled eggs. My tribe teased me about my quality of eggs the previous evening’s as compared to that morning’s. Humpf talk about appreciation. =p We then left for Survivor’s version of the amazing race, which was running around sentosa island solving clues and tasks. I kept telling them I wanted a ride on the monorail ( I can’t remember when I last did it) and I finally saw that happen after lunch. Lunch was a packet of rice, lemon chicken, long beans and egg toufu. Yum. I also walked past siloso and palawan beach and I realised how tranquil and peaceful it was to lie on the sands with such beautiful scenaries. An island entrance fee of $3 isn’t too much when you think of all the things you can do there. I hope to go back there again in the very very near future and explore the whole island. Rafting to many was probably the most fun event of the camp. Our tribe was only 1 of 3 which succeeded in building a raft that didn’t sink after 2 trips, and we won our race with tribe O and was promptly rewarded with a bottle of coke, which we left till the night BBQ to enjoy together.I felt very accomplished because I was in charge of a knot and that knot didn’t come off! I was very little disappointed though when I saw Princess P lazing around with her tribe instead of coming down to cheer for me. Our tribe also took a photo with our proud raft in the sea, and at the count of 3 someone actually pushed me forward and I struggled and flung my arms furiously to prevent myself from falling flat down into the water, which I didn’t. Nobody admitted who did it! They just kept laughing at me! That is tribe unity of some sort I guess. =D Wet games was exciting too. For game 1 everyone formed a big circle and we played dog and bone on the beach. Later on I represented the camp crew (although I wanted to represent my tribe) and I actually became the champion as I won about the remaining 5 or so people. The prize was a bag of cockles aka sea hum shells (official currency of survivor camp) which of course was wasted. My tribe came up to me nonetheless and praised how fast I was and I was really happy. =) For part 2 we built sandcastles (forts) and threw water bombs at other tribes’ while protecting our own. I ran first again and due to some misunderstanding picked up tag3 which we thought was the best location (but wasn’t), but in any case we fought hard and in the final battle between castles of opposite ends, the mentor stepped into our no-man zone and destroyed our castle, but I sportingly (wah who praises oneself as sporting wan hor?) said we lost (else I thought the game would never stop since the rules were a little fuzzy). I’m very pleased my tribe took defeat with pride and we were all very proud we came in 2nd. We really had a great time frolicking in the sand.
BBQ started off with the bidding of bonus items with our tribe’s sea hum (currency). The mentees were a little afraid in bidding early on (for fear of missing out on good items later) but the point was all tribes didn’t know what they were bidding for so it’s no difference. I didn’t interfere at first but with the 2nd last item left they still didn’t wanna budge so I decided to call the shots and we ended up buying a can of longans, which was delicious dessert to go with coke as well. There were also hot dogs, crab sticks, stingray, fish fillet, satay. Only one other mentee helped us ‘peng’ (er… means to hold the tong and flip the pieces), but we mentors were happy to do it for everyone anyway. There were so much food we couldn’t finish all, but we had a really enjoyable time sitting there as a tribe and bbq-ing under the stars.
After shower and clear up we proceeded on to the hall where we watched skits and we danced some chicken dance. My tribe was lazy in coming up with one so I thought of it myself and told a mentee everything he has to do, and I didn’t get myself involved that night. His relaying of information didn’t quite work out and our skit was very boring (especially it was the 1st of 8 tribes) but all our mentees had a part and it was nice to see the quiet ones finally speak up in front of an audience. There was also a pageant and we decorated a female mentee with straws, newspaper, aluminium foils etc. Everyone really enjoyed themselves.
The night ended earlier. And everyone was really tired. After the debrief I slept close to 3. I woke at 5am to go toilet, and was surprised to see a table of people (camp crew) chit chatting. They asked me to join in and I did so. They were actually gossiping! Wow I didn’t know there could be so many things to gossip about! We disbanded at 6 where I went back to bed again. Apparently the gossip continued after I left. I guess you can never run out of gossip huh. When we had nothing to talk about, one guy actually said “let’s come up with a hypothesis and we will test if it’s right tomorrow’. That’s how gossips start! Hahaha. Really fun people.
Day 3
Breakfast was milo, bread and hotdogs. We then did area cleaning while the camp crew had a meeting about which tribe to win which prize. All tribes had a prize consisting of a big hamper of tidbits. We then went for the last workshop where we wrote affirmation notes for each tribe member and there was a picture taken of all of us. Here’s some of the stuff they (mentors and mentees) wrote about me (edited):
“..crappy at times but indeed a wonderful leader..””..great job at the dog and bone WOW!...”
“..try not to be scared of boar = mao mao de zhu （毛毛的猪）…” (origin: a mentor and I were describing our NS jungle experiences and the mentee asked what’s a wild boar. The mentor said (translated) it’s like a hairy pig. Haha!
“ he is kind and helpful”
“he is smiling most of the time during the camp”
“.. a good personality that everyone likes of prefers to be a friend with!”
“..great to be in the same group with you..”
“..an active mentor who makes jokes all the time not to mention the time where you were pushed into the water..hahaha…””.. fastest legs and fussy tastebuds..”
“…never fails to bring joy and laughter to our group”
Here’s what MY mentee said about me (not edited):
“He is a very great, cool, helpful, friendly, and good person. He likes to make friends with everybody. He done a very great job for being a mentos.”
Other than the atrocious spelling and grammatical errors which gives me a headache, I’m very touched by his words and how we have had fun together. My friendship with him has strengthened.
The camp then ended as we headed back to clementi. We passed around a paper where we wrote our contacts. The rest went for a tribe lunch but I couldn’t because I had the camp crew debrief. But I’m sure the friendship doesn’t end here. Already a mentee has voiced out that he wants a gathering with our tribe. Isn’t that wonderful?
Everything about the camp programme was great. Even the weather was perfect, with only slight drizzles at unimportant times. But sometimes I wonder if the west spring (my mentor school) spirit has gone down a notch. I see other mentors always with their mentoring school whenever possible, but just not us. I’m also not so sure why a mentor seems to be angry and displeased at me from time to time. It makes me feel very uncomfortable inside. I’m also a little sad when I see Princess P but she seems too preoccupied to have time for me. Maybe I think too much again.
The camp crew is a really nice bunch of people. I love all of them. I’m quite sad the camp ended, because I don’t know when I can see them again. There’s an ‘afterglow’ meeting on Jan 15th, where the crew meets for a sort of post camp celebration. Can’t wait.
SMP has really changed my life this year. I’ve learnt a lot of things, and I’ve grown wiser.
2004 is a year not to be forgotten.
triggering Mr Ng HS |
Blueberry Pie
V-I-C-T-O-R-Y
Here's the rough guide:
Day 1
0730-0800 crew gathers
0800-0900 registration
0945-1100 sentosa mass games
1100-1145 workshop 1
1145-1215 camp master brief
1215-1pm lunch
1-145pm workshop 2
2-4pm station games
4-430pm camp > check in
430-6pm Dinner (Survival Cooking)
6-630pm washing up and inspection
630-7pm Briefing for night activities
7-1230am Lashing / Scavenger hunt / Nite Act
1230-130am Camp debrief / supper / shower
230am camp lights out
Day 2
0745-8am wake up
8-845am breakfast
845-9am briefing for day
9-1230pm amazing race / rafting
1230-130pm lunch
130-4pm amazing race / rafting
4-6pm wet games
6-930pm bidding of bonus food (using sea hum) + BBQ
930-12am Finale
1230 camp debrief / supper
Day 3
8am wake up breakfast
845-10am clean up
10-11am workshop 3
11-1130 prize presentation
1130-12 back to SCS
~~
I’m back from camp!! I’ll be doing a chronological recap so it’s gonna be long.
Day 1
Reached Clementi Student Care Service (scs) at around 720am and began to look through the logistics and helped pack the stuff to load up. My other 2 crew team mates claimed they were early and were sitting in the office (“blowing air con”). Funny right? We were told to reach earlier than the rest because we need to help in the packing, so of course we should go to the storeroom, which they didn’t.
After registration we were separated into 8 different groups, which was later on known to us to be Tribe Reese (Pronounced ree-say). We played whacko at the void deck and everyone introduced themselves. I knew most of the mentors beforehand but most of their mentees appeared to be very quiet so the whacko game was very boring. But as the day went by everyone opened up more and I was so happy when a male mentee began to talk more to me and smiled more often. My mentee was kinda shy too. He told me he didn’t want to make more friends. I told him just get to know everyone better first.
So we reached the camp site and we did mass ice breakers and were told of the camp rules and how it was a SURVIVOR camp. My tribe won the best cheer thanks to a mentee leading the way with his para-para like movements and our modified rendition of the victory cheer (see title). As a reward we were given forks and spoons for lunch while the rest had to make do with tearing off their Styrofoam boxes as makeshift utensils. Lunch was packed lunch with meat, egg and vegetables. My mentee thought it was very nice. I thought so too. Station games carried off very smoothly and was a huge success. Dinner was survival cooking. They gave us Bunsen burners and mass tins, packet noodles, canned mushrooms and beans and some stalks of vegetables. So I fed myself with the mushrooms and beans. They put so much MSG in the mass tin! No noodles for me. I then volunteered to cook eggs for everyone. The heating took up a lot of time and everyone complained my eggs were not hard boiled enough boo hoo hoo. But our tribe enjoyed ourselves so much. Everyone was already clearing up and 10minutes before gathering our tribe was still sitting down nonchalantly heating up food to eat!!
The night was equally great. We learnt knots and lashing, and although like my mentee, I thought it was very boring but I did learn a few tricks. And then we looked for missing jigsaw puzzle pieces in the dark. We found 35 of 36 pieces, but actually 18 of them belonged to another tribe. But our team cooperated very nicely and all of us were very enthusiastic about it. Night Act wasn’t as good as I expected, but the tribe wanted me to walk as the last man, which by itself was a trial of courage for me because I am afraid of the dark. Throughout the beginning I kept looking back and I also walked side by side with the 2nd last man, a mentee, and he actually told me there’s nothing to be afraid of. On the way I met Princess P in the trail! And I felt better =)
We ended day 1 with milo and biscuits. The tribe has just warmed up with one another. We then had mentor debrief and camp crew debrief (both of which I’m a part of) and we slept at a little past 3am. That night I looked forward to day 2 so much, I lay on my sleeping bag and couldn’t wait for 7am to come so I’d wake up officially. I slept and woke many times, only to press my watch light and see how early it was and not time to wake. I just couldn’t wait for the camp to re-start!
Day 2
Breakfast was milo and bread (with spread) and hard boiled eggs. My tribe teased me about my quality of eggs the previous evening’s as compared to that morning’s. Humpf talk about appreciation. =p We then left for Survivor’s version of the amazing race, which was running around sentosa island solving clues and tasks. I kept telling them I wanted a ride on the monorail ( I can’t remember when I last did it) and I finally saw that happen after lunch. Lunch was a packet of rice, lemon chicken, long beans and egg toufu. Yum. I also walked past siloso and palawan beach and I realised how tranquil and peaceful it was to lie on the sands with such beautiful scenaries. An island entrance fee of $3 isn’t too much when you think of all the things you can do there. I hope to go back there again in the very very near future and explore the whole island. Rafting to many was probably the most fun event of the camp. Our tribe was only 1 of 3 which succeeded in building a raft that didn’t sink after 2 trips, and we won our race with tribe O and was promptly rewarded with a bottle of coke, which we left till the night BBQ to enjoy together.I felt very accomplished because I was in charge of a knot and that knot didn’t come off! I was very little disappointed though when I saw Princess P lazing around with her tribe instead of coming down to cheer for me. Our tribe also took a photo with our proud raft in the sea, and at the count of 3 someone actually pushed me forward and I struggled and flung my arms furiously to prevent myself from falling flat down into the water, which I didn’t. Nobody admitted who did it! They just kept laughing at me! That is tribe unity of some sort I guess. =D Wet games was exciting too. For game 1 everyone formed a big circle and we played dog and bone on the beach. Later on I represented the camp crew (although I wanted to represent my tribe) and I actually became the champion as I won about the remaining 5 or so people. The prize was a bag of cockles aka sea hum shells (official currency of survivor camp) which of course was wasted. My tribe came up to me nonetheless and praised how fast I was and I was really happy. =) For part 2 we built sandcastles (forts) and threw water bombs at other tribes’ while protecting our own. I ran first again and due to some misunderstanding picked up tag3 which we thought was the best location (but wasn’t), but in any case we fought hard and in the final battle between castles of opposite ends, the mentor stepped into our no-man zone and destroyed our castle, but I sportingly (wah who praises oneself as sporting wan hor?) said we lost (else I thought the game would never stop since the rules were a little fuzzy). I’m very pleased my tribe took defeat with pride and we were all very proud we came in 2nd. We really had a great time frolicking in the sand.
BBQ started off with the bidding of bonus items with our tribe’s sea hum (currency). The mentees were a little afraid in bidding early on (for fear of missing out on good items later) but the point was all tribes didn’t know what they were bidding for so it’s no difference. I didn’t interfere at first but with the 2nd last item left they still didn’t wanna budge so I decided to call the shots and we ended up buying a can of longans, which was delicious dessert to go with coke as well. There were also hot dogs, crab sticks, stingray, fish fillet, satay. Only one other mentee helped us ‘peng’ (er… means to hold the tong and flip the pieces), but we mentors were happy to do it for everyone anyway. There were so much food we couldn’t finish all, but we had a really enjoyable time sitting there as a tribe and bbq-ing under the stars.
After shower and clear up we proceeded on to the hall where we watched skits and we danced some chicken dance. My tribe was lazy in coming up with one so I thought of it myself and told a mentee everything he has to do, and I didn’t get myself involved that night. His relaying of information didn’t quite work out and our skit was very boring (especially it was the 1st of 8 tribes) but all our mentees had a part and it was nice to see the quiet ones finally speak up in front of an audience. There was also a pageant and we decorated a female mentee with straws, newspaper, aluminium foils etc. Everyone really enjoyed themselves.
The night ended earlier. And everyone was really tired. After the debrief I slept close to 3. I woke at 5am to go toilet, and was surprised to see a table of people (camp crew) chit chatting. They asked me to join in and I did so. They were actually gossiping! Wow I didn’t know there could be so many things to gossip about! We disbanded at 6 where I went back to bed again. Apparently the gossip continued after I left. I guess you can never run out of gossip huh. When we had nothing to talk about, one guy actually said “let’s come up with a hypothesis and we will test if it’s right tomorrow’. That’s how gossips start! Hahaha. Really fun people.
Day 3
Breakfast was milo, bread and hotdogs. We then did area cleaning while the camp crew had a meeting about which tribe to win which prize. All tribes had a prize consisting of a big hamper of tidbits. We then went for the last workshop where we wrote affirmation notes for each tribe member and there was a picture taken of all of us. Here’s some of the stuff they (mentors and mentees) wrote about me (edited):
“..crappy at times but indeed a wonderful leader..””..great job at the dog and bone WOW!...”
“..try not to be scared of boar = mao mao de zhu （毛毛的猪）…” (origin: a mentor and I were describing our NS jungle experiences and the mentee asked what’s a wild boar. The mentor said (translated) it’s like a hairy pig. Haha!
“ he is kind and helpful”
“he is smiling most of the time during the camp”
“.. a good personality that everyone likes of prefers to be a friend with!”
“..great to be in the same group with you..”
“..an active mentor who makes jokes all the time not to mention the time where you were pushed into the water..hahaha…””.. fastest legs and fussy tastebuds..”
“…never fails to bring joy and laughter to our group”
Here’s what MY mentee said about me (not edited):
“He is a very great, cool, helpful, friendly, and good person. He likes to make friends with everybody. He done a very great job for being a mentos.”
Other than the atrocious spelling and grammatical errors which gives me a headache, I’m very touched by his words and how we have had fun together. My friendship with him has strengthened.
The camp then ended as we headed back to clementi. We passed around a paper where we wrote our contacts. The rest went for a tribe lunch but I couldn’t because I had the camp crew debrief. But I’m sure the friendship doesn’t end here. Already a mentee has voiced out that he wants a gathering with our tribe. Isn’t that wonderful?
Everything about the camp programme was great. Even the weather was perfect, with only slight drizzles at unimportant times. But sometimes I wonder if the west spring (my mentor school) spirit has gone down a notch. I see other mentors always with their mentoring school whenever possible, but just not us. I’m also not so sure why a mentor seems to be angry and displeased at me from time to time. It makes me feel very uncomfortable inside. I’m also a little sad when I see Princess P but she seems too preoccupied to have time for me. Maybe I think too much again.
The camp crew is a really nice bunch of people. I love all of them. I’m quite sad the camp ended, because I don’t know when I can see them again. There’s an ‘afterglow’ meeting on Jan 15th, where the crew meets for a sort of post camp celebration. Can’t wait.
SMP has really changed my life this year. I’ve learnt a lot of things, and I’ve grown wiser.
2004 is a year not to be forgotten.
triggering Mr Ng HS |
Thursday, December 09, 2004
Camp Survivor
I'll be off to sentosa for a 3d2n camp from thursday to saturday.
Hope everything goes well. For me and for all of you. =D
triggering Mr Ng HS |
I'll be off to sentosa for a 3d2n camp from thursday to saturday.
Hope everything goes well. For me and for all of you. =D
triggering Mr Ng HS |
Wednesday, December 08, 2004
Egg Toast
I don't think mine can be called French Toast.
Hey it's my first attempt at making! And also my first time taking out the stupid wok, the stupid utensil flipping the bread (whatsitsname), pouring stupid oil onto the stupid wok, making the whole stupid kitchen stink of stupid oil fumes..
But....
voila~~!!
triggering Mr Ng HS |
I don't think mine can be called French Toast.
Hey it's my first attempt at making! And also my first time taking out the stupid wok, the stupid utensil flipping the bread (whatsitsname), pouring stupid oil onto the stupid wok, making the whole stupid kitchen stink of stupid oil fumes..
But....
voila~~!!
Ok so they don't really possess the aesthetic value or make you drool. But it's my first attempt! And although I called Princess P to ask how to do it, I did it on my own ok! And she hasn't done it before! So I win her! HAHAHAHA! I put too much sugar so it was a little too sweet for my liking, and I think I added too much stupid oil onto the stupid wok too. The bread tasted very nice though! I had ALL five pieces as my lunch. Yum yum.
So next time I can add hotdogs or crab sticks..... *drools*.
Looks nicer than Princess P's muffin right? Right? Of course~~ =x Ssshhh ok ok I better stop.
triggering Mr Ng HS |
Wednesday, December 01, 2004
Another sem bites the dust.
So we've come to the end of the exams. 3 semesters in NUS already. I don't know whether I've truly learnt something. I got an F for an essay. I think I still haven't realised how to write a paper. There's so much more I need to improve. As mentioned in the pen episode, I also got a D (which was the lowest grade in my nus history at that moment) for a paper. For another paper I didn't even go and take it back because after I got the F I felt so demoralised and stupid I didn't dare to.
Anyway the exams were ok. I hope I pass all, so I don't have to take extra modules next semester. This has to be my worst semester academically wise. To console myself it's probably the negativity obtained due to the positive increase in my social life. You know the balance theory. Haha.
It's also december which means the one month of holidays has started. I'm not doing much though, as usual. I wish Princess P could spend more time with me but she has to work and money's important too I guess.
Bridget Jones 2 and Singapore Idol
If you thought that I wanted to watch this show, leave your name will ya? And I'll kill you. Haha point is I did watch it on tuesday thanks to Princess P and yay we are ok after some confusions yet again. I do hope we continue to be lovey dovey instead of grumpy bumpy (this term I invent wan, nice right? heh.) I don't know why, I just don't like British slang? I mean, I picture myself reading the text dialouge and maybe having a chuckle, but when they talk on screen it just kills everything. With stephen chow and his slapstick genre, I laugh even though I know what's gonna happen and it does happen, but with Bridge Jones I just don't. And what's with the weird middle aged lady sitting BESIDE me laughing like a mad woman. Maybe she's in a similar plight? Or what? The part where Bridget Jones was sliding off in her snow ski backwards. Was it that funny? Was it even funny at all? She was laughing and bending forward so extremely you'd think that she was told the lemon tree guy won singapore idol.
Talking about Singapore idol, oh yeah Taufik Batistuta won against Sylvester SIMi dai ji. Taufikster is really good though, and maybe I'm a tad biased 'cos of my love for r&b, but he just sings these types of songs so well; and while they say Singapore's usher, I think he's like the new stevie wonder! Sylvester was poor except for his 3rd song (a slow one which I like, surprise surprise), and he's better off in the chinese market, which is maybe why he was asked to sing the 2nd song An Jing by Jay Chou so the producers can listen and see if he's up to scratch.
The only concern, is of course if Taufik can really light up the singing industry here, what with his inability to sing in Mandarin and hs inability to tap into the hot hot hot Taiwanese market. But I'm oh so interested in checking out what songs he will cover in this album, and a r&b fan like me might just buy that album.
Gurmit Cantsingh said there are about 3million votes. I've called up Mediakorp and while they can't tell me the actual breakdown, this is what they consolidated (wonder how they do it).
The rough breakdown:
xiao mei mei: 2.1 million
xiao mei mei's boyfriends and butch girlfriends ("if not I don't friend you!"): 0.4 million
xiao mei mei's parents and grandparents (forced by xiao mei mei): 0.2 million
mediakorp and Singteld employees forcing their friends to call to support: 0.1 million
T and S's family members calling and forcing their friends to call to support: 0.1 million
others: 0.1 million
consists of>
callers who accidentally dialled the number
callers who thought that callers stand a chance to win the brand new chevrolet
callers who thought it's a HOT chatline
callers who thought by calling the idols will stop singing
I still think the votes didn't matter as I think Mediakorp and BMGee already decided who the contract should go to anyway, but yah it was good entertainment just now, and that's a cool 1.5million Sing dollars in one night, baby. I also don't understand the rationale behind spending big bucks in idol chasing. I guess when you're crazy there's really no rationale. But in a positive note at least there are people interested in our local entertainment scene.
I also think the "that's what friends are for (dionne warwick)" cover is gonna be on the airwaves 100 times a day for at least 2 months.
Shopping
I've bought the book I want, that is Squee, S$30 at Kino. Too bad I don't live in America. No imports then.
I also want to buy JTHM. But here's the complicated part: There are 7 issues, each at S$6, and I've already bought 4 issues. THEN I realise there's a compilation book. I'm not sure if there's extra stuff inside, but I like a book rather than 7 flimsy magazines. The book costs S$36, and I'm thinking of selling those 4 issues that I have. How am I gonna do that? Do people actually buy from yahoo? Do I try to sell first then buy? Or should I just spend the remaining S$18 and get the 3 missing issues and that's that. And maybe buy the 3 and sell all 7 so I can buy the book. I don't think there's gonna be anyone buying! And I can't find a 2nd hand copy of this online for sale. And I don't know people in USA coming back in December. So the book is put on hold meantime.
Arghghhg as I type this I've just gone to amazon to check how much it would cost and I clicked on "place your order" and that meant confirmation!
ARghghgh US$25.94 that's like over S$40.
Sigh.
Subtotal of Items:
$13.96
Shipping & Handling:
$11.98
------
Total for this Order:
$25.94
Shipping estimate for these items: December 6, 2004
Delivery estimate: December 20, 2004 - December 31, 2004
Sigh.
So I'll be eating grass for this month of December. And I still need to get rid of those 4 books. Anyone? If you want I can lend you and if you like it I can give them to you, and you can buy the remaining 3 (you will want to, trust me) yourself.
Thanks for your order, Trent!
ARghghhghghghghghg. These words will haunt me to sleep for the next few nights. At least the book is for me, and not spent on voting an idol.
But stilllll~?~?~?~?~?~?
I tell you, when the book comes I'll wrap it with gold and hug it to sleep everynight and then lock it up in a safe and then have a 500 pin combination and thumbprint identification security and and and......
ARGHAHSGHASHGHASGASGHASDUhSUODHASDUIOAHS*(DHASDUBASUIDEVGBQWIAWDAWVBDAWVAIVAIPSDVG.
*munches on grass*
Edited:
After an initial moment of giving in to buying the book (it's not that bad) I went back to do a thorough search and I don't know why but I took a long time before finding the cancellation button. I think I was afraid and feeling like a noob (newbie) because I have never done online transations other than the purchase of movie tickets, so I thought I screwed up and that's it.
Because you only pay for items when we ship them to you, you won't be charged for any items that you cancel.
Thank you for visiting Amazon.com!
Thank you Amazon!
*spits out grass*
pui.
Lesson learnt: Smart can liao, don't over smart! (translated from hokkien)
triggering Mr Ng HS |
So we've come to the end of the exams. 3 semesters in NUS already. I don't know whether I've truly learnt something. I got an F for an essay. I think I still haven't realised how to write a paper. There's so much more I need to improve. As mentioned in the pen episode, I also got a D (which was the lowest grade in my nus history at that moment) for a paper. For another paper I didn't even go and take it back because after I got the F I felt so demoralised and stupid I didn't dare to.
Anyway the exams were ok. I hope I pass all, so I don't have to take extra modules next semester. This has to be my worst semester academically wise. To console myself it's probably the negativity obtained due to the positive increase in my social life. You know the balance theory. Haha.
It's also december which means the one month of holidays has started. I'm not doing much though, as usual. I wish Princess P could spend more time with me but she has to work and money's important too I guess.
Bridget Jones 2 and Singapore Idol
If you thought that I wanted to watch this show, leave your name will ya? And I'll kill you. Haha point is I did watch it on tuesday thanks to Princess P and yay we are ok after some confusions yet again. I do hope we continue to be lovey dovey instead of grumpy bumpy (this term I invent wan, nice right? heh.) I don't know why, I just don't like British slang? I mean, I picture myself reading the text dialouge and maybe having a chuckle, but when they talk on screen it just kills everything. With stephen chow and his slapstick genre, I laugh even though I know what's gonna happen and it does happen, but with Bridge Jones I just don't. And what's with the weird middle aged lady sitting BESIDE me laughing like a mad woman. Maybe she's in a similar plight? Or what? The part where Bridget Jones was sliding off in her snow ski backwards. Was it that funny? Was it even funny at all? She was laughing and bending forward so extremely you'd think that she was told the lemon tree guy won singapore idol.
Talking about Singapore idol, oh yeah Taufik Batistuta won against Sylvester SIMi dai ji. Taufikster is really good though, and maybe I'm a tad biased 'cos of my love for r&b, but he just sings these types of songs so well; and while they say Singapore's usher, I think he's like the new stevie wonder! Sylvester was poor except for his 3rd song (a slow one which I like, surprise surprise), and he's better off in the chinese market, which is maybe why he was asked to sing the 2nd song An Jing by Jay Chou so the producers can listen and see if he's up to scratch.
The only concern, is of course if Taufik can really light up the singing industry here, what with his inability to sing in Mandarin and hs inability to tap into the hot hot hot Taiwanese market. But I'm oh so interested in checking out what songs he will cover in this album, and a r&b fan like me might just buy that album.
Gurmit Cantsingh said there are about 3million votes. I've called up Mediakorp and while they can't tell me the actual breakdown, this is what they consolidated (wonder how they do it).
The rough breakdown:
xiao mei mei: 2.1 million
xiao mei mei's boyfriends and butch girlfriends ("if not I don't friend you!"): 0.4 million
xiao mei mei's parents and grandparents (forced by xiao mei mei): 0.2 million
mediakorp and Singteld employees forcing their friends to call to support: 0.1 million
T and S's family members calling and forcing their friends to call to support: 0.1 million
others: 0.1 million
consists of>
callers who accidentally dialled the number
callers who thought that callers stand a chance to win the brand new chevrolet
callers who thought it's a HOT chatline
callers who thought by calling the idols will stop singing
I still think the votes didn't matter as I think Mediakorp and BMGee already decided who the contract should go to anyway, but yah it was good entertainment just now, and that's a cool 1.5million Sing dollars in one night, baby. I also don't understand the rationale behind spending big bucks in idol chasing. I guess when you're crazy there's really no rationale. But in a positive note at least there are people interested in our local entertainment scene.
I also think the "that's what friends are for (dionne warwick)" cover is gonna be on the airwaves 100 times a day for at least 2 months.
Shopping
I've bought the book I want, that is Squee, S$30 at Kino. Too bad I don't live in America. No imports then.
I also want to buy JTHM. But here's the complicated part: There are 7 issues, each at S$6, and I've already bought 4 issues. THEN I realise there's a compilation book. I'm not sure if there's extra stuff inside, but I like a book rather than 7 flimsy magazines. The book costs S$36, and I'm thinking of selling those 4 issues that I have. How am I gonna do that? Do people actually buy from yahoo? Do I try to sell first then buy? Or should I just spend the remaining S$18 and get the 3 missing issues and that's that. And maybe buy the 3 and sell all 7 so I can buy the book. I don't think there's gonna be anyone buying! And I can't find a 2nd hand copy of this online for sale. And I don't know people in USA coming back in December. So the book is put on hold meantime.
Arghghhg as I type this I've just gone to amazon to check how much it would cost and I clicked on "place your order" and that meant confirmation!
ARghghgh US$25.94 that's like over S$40.
Sigh.
Subtotal of Items:
$13.96
Shipping & Handling:
$11.98
------
Total for this Order:
$25.94
Shipping estimate for these items: December 6, 2004
Delivery estimate: December 20, 2004 - December 31, 2004
Sigh.
So I'll be eating grass for this month of December. And I still need to get rid of those 4 books. Anyone? If you want I can lend you and if you like it I can give them to you, and you can buy the remaining 3 (you will want to, trust me) yourself.
Thanks for your order, Trent!
ARghghhghghghghghg. These words will haunt me to sleep for the next few nights. At least the book is for me, and not spent on voting an idol.
But stilllll~?~?~?~?~?~?
I tell you, when the book comes I'll wrap it with gold and hug it to sleep everynight and then lock it up in a safe and then have a 500 pin combination and thumbprint identification security and and and......
ARGHAHSGHASHGHASGASGHASDUhSUODHASDUIOAHS*(DHASDUBASUIDEVGBQWIAWDAWVBDAWVAIVAIPSDVG.
*munches on grass*
Edited:
After an initial moment of giving in to buying the book (it's not that bad) I went back to do a thorough search and I don't know why but I took a long time before finding the cancellation button. I think I was afraid and feeling like a noob (newbie) because I have never done online transations other than the purchase of movie tickets, so I thought I screwed up and that's it.
Because you only pay for items when we ship them to you, you won't be charged for any items that you cancel.
Thank you for visiting Amazon.com!
Thank you Amazon!
*spits out grass*
pui.
Lesson learnt: Smart can liao, don't over smart! (translated from hokkien)
triggering Mr Ng HS |