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Thursday, September 30, 2004
Hunt for Red October.
In a few hours, 9 goes and 10 comes.
I know, I know, time flies.
I'd like to say that,
I love to love
and I love to be loved by
Look everyone this is Princess P.
Haha isn't she pretty. In real life she's even more beautiful.
her.
triggering Mr Ng HS |
In a few hours, 9 goes and 10 comes.
I know, I know, time flies.
I'd like to say that,
I love to love
and I love to be loved by
Look everyone this is Princess P.
Haha isn't she pretty. In real life she's even more beautiful.
her.
triggering Mr Ng HS |
Wednesday, September 29, 2004
This is REAL weird man.
The dream I had this morning.
I can't remember much now, but basically I was on a taxi from NUS to home. The driver was this slightly old middle build man with few hair on his head, all white. I was sitting on the front seat (not what I usually do) and it was late at night and I was very tired.
The man muttered some words which I thought it was of a different language (not hokkien or some dialect, sorta like gibberish alien language), so I asked what did you say? He said 'nothing'.
I was tired and I apparently dosed off here and there. When I opened my eyes I found myself in a road with no cars, neither were there any coming from the opposite road (Incidentally this is something I'm afraid in real life: driving at night with no cars around me.) . I started to panic a little and I asked where are we going.
The man reached over his left arm and put a stronghold on my neck, giving the sickest of looks, and said "rape."
I was shocked. And for a moment I couldn't move. And I was in those transition states you know where you think you feel as if you're really in the taxi and also you feel that you're just having a dream. So I tried to get away from the man's grasp and after what seemed like awhile I succeeded and I finally opened my eyes and I saw my bedroom wall, and I experienced this terrible insecure feeling and quite a relief it was just a dream, and at the same time flabbergasted that I had this kinda yucky dream. I mean, what happened to hilltops and flowers and butterflies and bunnies running around?
Ok so I didn't get raped in my dream. I did a search on rape in dreams and it generally says I have the feeling that I'm being overpowered and dominated, or there are people whom I feel are violating or exploiting me.
Am I? Are there?
Who are these people? Can you please stand up, please stand up?
Or anyone offer an alternative explanation? Heh.
triggering Mr Ng HS |
The dream I had this morning.
I can't remember much now, but basically I was on a taxi from NUS to home. The driver was this slightly old middle build man with few hair on his head, all white. I was sitting on the front seat (not what I usually do) and it was late at night and I was very tired.
The man muttered some words which I thought it was of a different language (not hokkien or some dialect, sorta like gibberish alien language), so I asked what did you say? He said 'nothing'.
I was tired and I apparently dosed off here and there. When I opened my eyes I found myself in a road with no cars, neither were there any coming from the opposite road (Incidentally this is something I'm afraid in real life: driving at night with no cars around me.) . I started to panic a little and I asked where are we going.
The man reached over his left arm and put a stronghold on my neck, giving the sickest of looks, and said "rape."
I was shocked. And for a moment I couldn't move. And I was in those transition states you know where you think you feel as if you're really in the taxi and also you feel that you're just having a dream. So I tried to get away from the man's grasp and after what seemed like awhile I succeeded and I finally opened my eyes and I saw my bedroom wall, and I experienced this terrible insecure feeling and quite a relief it was just a dream, and at the same time flabbergasted that I had this kinda yucky dream. I mean, what happened to hilltops and flowers and butterflies and bunnies running around?
Ok so I didn't get raped in my dream. I did a search on rape in dreams and it generally says I have the feeling that I'm being overpowered and dominated, or there are people whom I feel are violating or exploiting me.
Am I? Are there?
Who are these people? Can you please stand up, please stand up?
Or anyone offer an alternative explanation? Heh.
triggering Mr Ng HS |
Tuesday, September 28, 2004
Busy days past present future.
Woah. There is not enough time all of a sudden.
Monday:
Went to crystal jade at Holland V with big bro and dasao and mum to celebrate mum's birthday. And later sat down at Haagen Daaz (sp) and I ate fresh ice cream from this brand for the first time. The other two times were when the buckets were bought off the shelf.
Today:
It's my mum's birthday and I wished her happy birthday in the car on my way to school. Princess P wanted me to relay a greeting message from her to my mum but I told her it will be more sincere to tell mum herself. And she really did sms my mum! The exchange of smses was so cute! And it really makes me happy seeing this happen. Mum's over the moon, and I'm sure Princess P's pretty pleased too. (check out the aliteration on that one! =D )
After school I went for the SMP december camp crew meeting. There's so much fun in store for us!!! But this also means more administrative work to be done. Something interesting to note. They were deciding which person to be a central character in the camp; you know the one who holds everything together, sorta like the MC + clown for the whole camp; the guy who plays out the role of the main guy in a fictitious plot of the cam? Backstage my incharge and the main character for last year (I heard he's been doing it for many years and is looking for a successor) actually came and looked for me. Wow I feel so honoured that people really think I can do it. Frankly I also believe I can. But they later felt that as a mentor I need to be with my school and mentees and thus can't hold such an important job. Maybe next year huh? Haha who knows... They were also looking for a plot for this camp. I really feel I can contribute writing one. It's basically about famous cartoon / comic characters. But I'm so busy this week. Maybe I'll email my incharge and see how I can help.
Mid autumn festival.
This festival never meant much to me except that I get to eat my favourite snowskin mooncakes. As I took a bus back I saw kids with their parents strolling by the road with their brightly lit lanterns. I used to do that when I was so young. It's kinda sad now when I just see it as another day. I read some blogs and many mentioned about the good times they had. Am I so old? Or is my culture so different?
Received an email from Dad today.
Dear [myname],
how are you getting on ? is everything fine with you?
happy Zhongqiu jie.
dad
I did a quick reply saying everything's ok and life's getting busier, and I wished him happy zhongqiujie back. I wanted to end with a =) but I decided against. I feel awkward.
Alright I shall go shower now and get to work. There's so much stuff to do and essays to write.
Happy mid-autumn festival everyone. =)
triggering Mr Ng HS |
Woah. There is not enough time all of a sudden.
Monday:
Went to crystal jade at Holland V with big bro and dasao and mum to celebrate mum's birthday. And later sat down at Haagen Daaz (sp) and I ate fresh ice cream from this brand for the first time. The other two times were when the buckets were bought off the shelf.
Today:
It's my mum's birthday and I wished her happy birthday in the car on my way to school. Princess P wanted me to relay a greeting message from her to my mum but I told her it will be more sincere to tell mum herself. And she really did sms my mum! The exchange of smses was so cute! And it really makes me happy seeing this happen. Mum's over the moon, and I'm sure Princess P's pretty pleased too. (check out the aliteration on that one! =D )
After school I went for the SMP december camp crew meeting. There's so much fun in store for us!!! But this also means more administrative work to be done. Something interesting to note. They were deciding which person to be a central character in the camp; you know the one who holds everything together, sorta like the MC + clown for the whole camp; the guy who plays out the role of the main guy in a fictitious plot of the cam? Backstage my incharge and the main character for last year (I heard he's been doing it for many years and is looking for a successor) actually came and looked for me. Wow I feel so honoured that people really think I can do it. Frankly I also believe I can. But they later felt that as a mentor I need to be with my school and mentees and thus can't hold such an important job. Maybe next year huh? Haha who knows... They were also looking for a plot for this camp. I really feel I can contribute writing one. It's basically about famous cartoon / comic characters. But I'm so busy this week. Maybe I'll email my incharge and see how I can help.
Mid autumn festival.
This festival never meant much to me except that I get to eat my favourite snowskin mooncakes. As I took a bus back I saw kids with their parents strolling by the road with their brightly lit lanterns. I used to do that when I was so young. It's kinda sad now when I just see it as another day. I read some blogs and many mentioned about the good times they had. Am I so old? Or is my culture so different?
Received an email from Dad today.
Dear [myname],
how are you getting on ? is everything fine with you?
happy Zhongqiu jie.
dad
I did a quick reply saying everything's ok and life's getting busier, and I wished him happy zhongqiujie back. I wanted to end with a =) but I decided against. I feel awkward.
Alright I shall go shower now and get to work. There's so much stuff to do and essays to write.
Happy mid-autumn festival everyone. =)
triggering Mr Ng HS |
Sunday, September 26, 2004
I went to the dining room to have brunch earlier. Mum came out bringing all her newspapers to sit diagonally opposite me.
You know what I said. I actually grumbled why did you come out. She said she hasn't been seeing me with our late nights and all.
I finished my food and left the table. And she left soon after.
I feel a little guilty, which people will say I should. I don't feel comfortable with her sometimes, plus today my mood isn't excellent to begin with, although that hardly passes as an excuse. It's her birthday this tuesday. I haven't gotten her anything. I also have a mentoring camp crew meeting to attend till 930pm on the same day. I'm thinking of backing out to be camp crew, but in some parts of me I don't wanna go home early and face an awkward evening with my mum, so perhaps I'll just attend the first meeting and see how it goes.
Ain't I just bloody weird? I'm not making sense. So the moody me went back to bed and hugged all my bolster and pillows, and I fell asleep. I'm back on my feet now. And I got a timely sms from the very same friend who does a little preaching to me at times; I mentioned a couple in my history. The sms goes like this:
Brother, this day the Lord showed me a revelation. Joshua in the midst of bad circumstances called upon the power of God to still the sun and the moon. I want you to know that so long as you stand strong in whatever you are beliving God for, the enemy will come under your footstool and pave the way for you to see your victory in the natural. God bless!
The first thing that came to my mind was what if the enemy believed in God too?
Anyway the sms's certainly weird.
It's a weird day.
triggering Mr Ng HS |
You know what I said. I actually grumbled why did you come out. She said she hasn't been seeing me with our late nights and all.
I finished my food and left the table. And she left soon after.
I feel a little guilty, which people will say I should. I don't feel comfortable with her sometimes, plus today my mood isn't excellent to begin with, although that hardly passes as an excuse. It's her birthday this tuesday. I haven't gotten her anything. I also have a mentoring camp crew meeting to attend till 930pm on the same day. I'm thinking of backing out to be camp crew, but in some parts of me I don't wanna go home early and face an awkward evening with my mum, so perhaps I'll just attend the first meeting and see how it goes.
Ain't I just bloody weird? I'm not making sense. So the moody me went back to bed and hugged all my bolster and pillows, and I fell asleep. I'm back on my feet now. And I got a timely sms from the very same friend who does a little preaching to me at times; I mentioned a couple in my history. The sms goes like this:
Brother, this day the Lord showed me a revelation. Joshua in the midst of bad circumstances called upon the power of God to still the sun and the moon. I want you to know that so long as you stand strong in whatever you are beliving God for, the enemy will come under your footstool and pave the way for you to see your victory in the natural. God bless!
The first thing that came to my mind was what if the enemy believed in God too?
Anyway the sms's certainly weird.
It's a weird day.
triggering Mr Ng HS |
Saturday gone.
The day out with some mentees and fellow mentors at the Pasir Ris Park. Yeah. You know that place, far far away from civilisation, somewhere in the far east of Singapore. I was there again yesterday.
Pasir Ris will, I'm sure for most guys, remind them of the NS days. I was at the interchange earlier when whole busloads of NS guys alighted, and you can just smell the typical smell of their army uniform. It's already more than two years since the last time I was in Tekong. Time really likes to whoosh.
So we reached the park and somehow the group split up. In a nutshell, we played the swings and slides at the park, drew pictures and names on the sand, sat down and talked and ate tidbits and played UNO, had a little football kickabout, and enjoying ourselves. Important points to note were how I was bullied by 5year old girls (I guess around that age) when I helped them push this merry-go-round sorta thing and they threw sand at me (in jest I'm sure) and how 2 mentees combined powers and made me pay for their bicycle rentals, which amounted to $18.
I don't even buy that many things for myself. Yet I feel that my money is getting less and less. Perhaps it is time to wear the mask of Uncle Scrooge.
Dinner was at a friend's place in Changi. Was her 21st birthday celebration. The ration was running low but the main point was the birthday girl didn't even come over and talk to us. I really find this kinda thing very hard to swallow. If you can't handle the crowd, then don't invite so many people. Moreover last night the crowd was so small, yet she chose to hang out with the other friends. I don't like this feeling. Not in anyone's place. The rest said I complain too much. I just don't like this feeling.
I reached home a little past midnight. Dang I couldn't even go out with Princess P.
triggering Mr Ng HS |
The day out with some mentees and fellow mentors at the Pasir Ris Park. Yeah. You know that place, far far away from civilisation, somewhere in the far east of Singapore. I was there again yesterday.
Pasir Ris will, I'm sure for most guys, remind them of the NS days. I was at the interchange earlier when whole busloads of NS guys alighted, and you can just smell the typical smell of their army uniform. It's already more than two years since the last time I was in Tekong. Time really likes to whoosh.
So we reached the park and somehow the group split up. In a nutshell, we played the swings and slides at the park, drew pictures and names on the sand, sat down and talked and ate tidbits and played UNO, had a little football kickabout, and enjoying ourselves. Important points to note were how I was bullied by 5year old girls (I guess around that age) when I helped them push this merry-go-round sorta thing and they threw sand at me (in jest I'm sure) and how 2 mentees combined powers and made me pay for their bicycle rentals, which amounted to $18.
I don't even buy that many things for myself. Yet I feel that my money is getting less and less. Perhaps it is time to wear the mask of Uncle Scrooge.
Dinner was at a friend's place in Changi. Was her 21st birthday celebration. The ration was running low but the main point was the birthday girl didn't even come over and talk to us. I really find this kinda thing very hard to swallow. If you can't handle the crowd, then don't invite so many people. Moreover last night the crowd was so small, yet she chose to hang out with the other friends. I don't like this feeling. Not in anyone's place. The rest said I complain too much. I just don't like this feeling.
I reached home a little past midnight. Dang I couldn't even go out with Princess P.
triggering Mr Ng HS |
Saturday, September 25, 2004
It's her.
Was at the coffeeshop beside Macdonalds at Clementi earlier in the evening, and guess who I saw.
Her. The one that caused sleepless nights and endless tears.
Carrying her big backpack and walking past the place with a guy beside her.
I don't know why, but my reflex action was to look down and hope the huge containers of barley and bandung would conceal me; I was ordering drinks at the stall.
I'm not sure if she saw me, but as they walked past I turned and kept my eyes on her, until she went the distance.
I'm pretty sure she did see me. Are things that bad? Or am I directing my own movie plot again?
Otherwise I had a wonderful evening. Had dinner with Princess P and sent her home. Her mum made snowskin mooncakes and gave me some to try. =) Isn't that lovely. =D =D Tastes good too.
Got a long saturday ahead. Going Pasir Ris park with some mentees and fellow mentors for a day out, and then my friend's birthday celebration. Haven't been feeling very well, so I've actually said I wouldn't be going to the football session this coming sunday morning. I forsee a tired me at the end of saturday night.
Oh the pain of missing out on football!!
Ah crap. Back to work. Stone. Sleep.
triggering Mr Ng HS |
Was at the coffeeshop beside Macdonalds at Clementi earlier in the evening, and guess who I saw.
Her. The one that caused sleepless nights and endless tears.
Carrying her big backpack and walking past the place with a guy beside her.
I don't know why, but my reflex action was to look down and hope the huge containers of barley and bandung would conceal me; I was ordering drinks at the stall.
I'm not sure if she saw me, but as they walked past I turned and kept my eyes on her, until she went the distance.
I'm pretty sure she did see me. Are things that bad? Or am I directing my own movie plot again?
Otherwise I had a wonderful evening. Had dinner with Princess P and sent her home. Her mum made snowskin mooncakes and gave me some to try. =) Isn't that lovely. =D =D Tastes good too.
Got a long saturday ahead. Going Pasir Ris park with some mentees and fellow mentors for a day out, and then my friend's birthday celebration. Haven't been feeling very well, so I've actually said I wouldn't be going to the football session this coming sunday morning. I forsee a tired me at the end of saturday night.
Oh the pain of missing out on football!!
Ah crap. Back to work. Stone. Sleep.
triggering Mr Ng HS |
Wednesday, September 22, 2004
Hmm.
I sent some nice sms messages to her last night. Or so I thought.
But she thought I only did it so as to appease her anger. Which wasn't the case.
"..u trying 2 to sweettalk me after u thot u make me angry.." she typed.
I don't like this s term. I wasn't. I was just saying what I felt and it's independent of everything else. This is the first time someone puts it this way. It makes me feel very cheap.
Am I being silly again?
triggering Mr Ng HS |
I sent some nice sms messages to her last night. Or so I thought.
But she thought I only did it so as to appease her anger. Which wasn't the case.
"..u trying 2 to sweettalk me after u thot u make me angry.." she typed.
I don't like this s term. I wasn't. I was just saying what I felt and it's independent of everything else. This is the first time someone puts it this way. It makes me feel very cheap.
Am I being silly again?
triggering Mr Ng HS |
Tuesday, September 21, 2004
A wonderful time.
On Monday night we went to watch dodgeball, and she laughed a lot. Yah it was a good show worth the weekday price I guess. Ben stiller still kicks ass, and Christine Taylor the female lead is oohlala~.
We then headed to west coast park. I think it's called west coast park. The one beside NUS. It was her first time there, and it's a nice place. And because I had the car we didn't have to go home so early, and we spent the time talking and lazing under the crescent moonlight, although time really flies when you're with someone you enjoy being with.
Actually there were some things I wanted to talk about, but the conversation didn't hold. It's alright. I listened to her tell me about an episode in her life, and I learnt more about her.
Nothing more to add, except that she's really cute when she's embarassed. =p
Yeah.
triggering Mr Ng HS |
On Monday night we went to watch dodgeball, and she laughed a lot. Yah it was a good show worth the weekday price I guess. Ben stiller still kicks ass, and Christine Taylor the female lead is oohlala~.
We then headed to west coast park. I think it's called west coast park. The one beside NUS. It was her first time there, and it's a nice place. And because I had the car we didn't have to go home so early, and we spent the time talking and lazing under the crescent moonlight, although time really flies when you're with someone you enjoy being with.
Actually there were some things I wanted to talk about, but the conversation didn't hold. It's alright. I listened to her tell me about an episode in her life, and I learnt more about her.
Nothing more to add, except that she's really cute when she's embarassed. =p
Yeah.
triggering Mr Ng HS |
Saturday, September 18, 2004
沮丧的日子
不知不觉，有过了一个星期。
二零零四年九月十八号，星期六。接近下午四点钟的时刻，您正在做什么呢？
现在的天空乌云密布，黑暗仿佛笼罩了世界； 现在的您，此刻的心情又是什么呢？
我？我现在正在家等着我朋友发简讯给我。她刚刚考完试，现在应该是在与朋友相会的路途上吧。简讯就是我们所说的 sms 嘛， 你怎么搞不懂呢？我心里希望她会发简讯跟我说一声她考得怎样，可是坦白的说， 我认为那简讯不会来的。那我为什么自己不发简讯问她呢？我也不晓得。可能我怕给她那种我缠着你的感觉，因为她也曾说过这点。心疼的是，我好想她。 真的，我很喜欢她。 喜欢她什么，或许在这里说出来并不怎么恰当， 但我就用几个字来形容吧。
我喜欢她， 因为她是一个很真的女孩。
很真是什么意思？或许我自己也回答不了。这就是爱情的威力？
我从早起床到现在，一直不停的想着她。不，这一点都不夸张，也一点都不肉麻，因为这是我真实的感触。昨晚我送她回家的时候，也不知道到底发生了什么事，又开始胡思乱想， 搞得大家都不开心。我真蠢！她生气了，我真是活该！我躺在床上自我反省。有时候我觉得我自己真得很白痴。我平时常用这词来取笑别人，可其实用在最适当的人选竟是我！
这就是我沮丧的日子。我希望自己别再想这么多了，可是我怎么都好像没有进步呢？我太对不起我自己，以及对不起我身边的好友们，因为他们是真心地爱着我和关心着我。
我也是真心地爱着和关心着你们，尤其是你。
尤其是你。
triggering Mr Ng HS |
不知不觉，有过了一个星期。
二零零四年九月十八号，星期六。接近下午四点钟的时刻，您正在做什么呢？
现在的天空乌云密布，黑暗仿佛笼罩了世界； 现在的您，此刻的心情又是什么呢？
我？我现在正在家等着我朋友发简讯给我。她刚刚考完试，现在应该是在与朋友相会的路途上吧。简讯就是我们所说的 sms 嘛， 你怎么搞不懂呢？我心里希望她会发简讯跟我说一声她考得怎样，可是坦白的说， 我认为那简讯不会来的。那我为什么自己不发简讯问她呢？我也不晓得。可能我怕给她那种我缠着你的感觉，因为她也曾说过这点。心疼的是，我好想她。 真的，我很喜欢她。 喜欢她什么，或许在这里说出来并不怎么恰当， 但我就用几个字来形容吧。
我喜欢她， 因为她是一个很真的女孩。
很真是什么意思？或许我自己也回答不了。这就是爱情的威力？
我从早起床到现在，一直不停的想着她。不，这一点都不夸张，也一点都不肉麻，因为这是我真实的感触。昨晚我送她回家的时候，也不知道到底发生了什么事，又开始胡思乱想， 搞得大家都不开心。我真蠢！她生气了，我真是活该！我躺在床上自我反省。有时候我觉得我自己真得很白痴。我平时常用这词来取笑别人，可其实用在最适当的人选竟是我！
这就是我沮丧的日子。我希望自己别再想这么多了，可是我怎么都好像没有进步呢？我太对不起我自己，以及对不起我身边的好友们，因为他们是真心地爱着我和关心着我。
我也是真心地爱着和关心着你们，尤其是你。
尤其是你。
triggering Mr Ng HS |
Friday, September 17, 2004
The amazing adventures of Treppy and Rabbity!!
Chapter 2: The enlightenment
Click for chapter 1: The awakening
Treppy goes into the bathroom, puts toothpaste on his toothbrush, and puts the toothbrush in his mouth. His eyes grudgingly stay open, peeking into the mirror, looking at the reflection of the rabbit.
My pet, just spoke to me. And I just spoke to my pet. What's happening?
Treppy washes up and heads back into his room, where Rabbity has already entered the following website:
www.rabbitsshitonyou.com
Treppy: What the hell is that?
Rabbity: Oh crap you're back already. Ok look, this is the site where I collect the information passed down.
Treppy: Passed down? From where?
Rabbity: From my superiors you nitwit.
Treppy: A prophet has superiors?
Rabbity: Yah well just shut up. I'll tell you more next time.
Treppy: Uh huh. So what you're telling me is, you use the internet when there's no one at home?
Rabbity: What do you think I do everyday? Just lie in the balcony, eating and sleeping??
Treppy: And shitting.
Rabbity: Yah well ok fine and shitting.
Treppy: But I shut the balcony doors!
Rabbity: Your room was shut as well, but here I'm.
Treppy: What the..
Treppy doesn't feel so good suddenly. "You know what, I feel like going back to bed. Can I go back to bed?"
Rabbity looks at Treppy and winks. "You can try."
Treppy: Huh??
Rabbity: Like I said we've got stuff to do.
Treppy: Like what?
Rabbity: We need to analyse you, with me involved.
Treppy: Huh??
Rabbity: The easteregg has signaled for a new protocol of human-rabbit interaction in September 2004, and here we are now.
Treppy: Easteregg??
Rabbity: Yah that'ss the command centre.
Treppy: So now what?
Rabbity: We go to school.
Treppy: I don't have school today!
Rabbity: We can still go to school, can't we?
The prophet winks again.
triggering Mr Ng HS |
Tuesday, September 14, 2004
?
It's happening again.
Something's wrong.
I need to change the way I think, else I'll just choke myself to death.
~
In other depressing news, it's raining very heavily now. I hate rain. Makes the whole house dark, and it's not even noon. And it makes me not concentrate, because I'll just pay attention to all the droplets and thunder sounds and start to think of people I miss.
I'm so hungry now despite a heavy dinner last night at Swensens, a meeting before my friend flies back to UK. And dinner's expensive. I'll not be buying food from now on for awhile. I'll eat the food mum buys. Yes it's all the same money anyway but if I don't spend she wouldn't complain.
It's one of those disgusting days, where you just want the day to pass by so quickly, but then again you can't afford it, because you have workloads of gargantuan proportions, so it's plain disgusting.
I hope none of you were caught in the rain today. =)
triggering Mr Ng HS |
It's happening again.
Something's wrong.
I need to change the way I think, else I'll just choke myself to death.
~
In other depressing news, it's raining very heavily now. I hate rain. Makes the whole house dark, and it's not even noon. And it makes me not concentrate, because I'll just pay attention to all the droplets and thunder sounds and start to think of people I miss.
I'm so hungry now despite a heavy dinner last night at Swensens, a meeting before my friend flies back to UK. And dinner's expensive. I'll not be buying food from now on for awhile. I'll eat the food mum buys. Yes it's all the same money anyway but if I don't spend she wouldn't complain.
It's one of those disgusting days, where you just want the day to pass by so quickly, but then again you can't afford it, because you have workloads of gargantuan proportions, so it's plain disgusting.
I hope none of you were caught in the rain today. =)
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Monday, September 13, 2004
I cried a little just now.
Just a few tears.
Been a long time.
But I know.
Someday the tears will be happy tears.
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Just a few tears.
Been a long time.
But I know.
Someday the tears will be happy tears.
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Sunday, September 12, 2004
Weekend fatigue.
You know there are probably two types of people over the weekend. One gets plenty of rest amidst his doing of homework so that he's ready for the next week, while another tires himself out resulting in him being so not ready for the next week.
No prizes guessing which category yours truly belongs to. ;)
Went out for a late dinner with her last night and came home only at 3+ am. And soccer just now at 8am.
Lunch soon, and I'll see if I can hang in there to do some work, if not, I'll hit the sack.
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You know there are probably two types of people over the weekend. One gets plenty of rest amidst his doing of homework so that he's ready for the next week, while another tires himself out resulting in him being so not ready for the next week.
No prizes guessing which category yours truly belongs to. ;)
Went out for a late dinner with her last night and came home only at 3+ am. And soccer just now at 8am.
Lunch soon, and I'll see if I can hang in there to do some work, if not, I'll hit the sack.
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Saturday, September 11, 2004
Disorder Rating
Paranoid: Moderate
Schizoid: Low
Schizotypal: Moderate
Antisocial: Low
Borderline: Low
Histrionic: High
Narcissistic: Moderate
Avoidant: Low
Dependent: Moderate
Obsessive-Compulsive: Low
What do all those disorders mean?
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Paranoid: Moderate
Schizoid: Low
Schizotypal: Moderate
Antisocial: Low
Borderline: Low
Histrionic: High
Narcissistic: Moderate
Avoidant: Low
Dependent: Moderate
Obsessive-Compulsive: Low
What do all those disorders mean?
Click for the test.
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Princess P.
Friday night. Clouds you cannot see, stars you don't see glitter. Moon somewhat a waning crescent (refer to pic on left). Darkness befalls. He showers, grabs the keys, revs up the engine, drives to school, picks her up, drives to her place (after consulting the street directory 100times), and she heads back to shower.
Our hero waits patiently in the car. Our hero has perhaps taken a liking to the princess' younger brother, for the brother, brave and resilient he is in front of his abominable sister, apparently kept hurrying her and reminding her that some gentleman is waiting for her.
It is only a SHORT 40minute wait. The princess not only have to shower, but have other important things to settle, calls to make. Upon hearing what the little brother had to say, our hero is touched.
Yes, and our hero hasn't even met him yet.
So finally the princess shows her face, her hair as if she's been caught in heavy rain, but still looking as beautiful as ever.
Our hero inhales. The princess smells like a thousand daffodils.
{disclaimer: the author doesn't know what daffodils smell like; he assumes flowers smell nice}
Our hero and Princess P then proceeds to have dinner, in an extremely romantic setting in the heartlands of....... KFC.
"Finger lickin' good" It says on the signboard above the counters. Our hero asks if anyone else has tried out the popcorn chicken. The packet is so small, almost equivalent to the size of the hero's handphone. The chicken is so small, you only need a finger and a thumb to hold and eat it. Our hero believes that KFC has got their motto right alright.
Our hero then portrays his sensitive side by listening to everything Princess P has to say throughout the night, but our hero feels there is an occurrence of unjustice as Princess P pinches our hero's cheeks every now and then. The cheeks are so soft and nice to pinch, she claims.
Our hero gentlemanly lets the lady have her way, in secret hope that she will feel guilty, but apparently, Princess P doesn't have the word guilt in her dictionary.
The movie for the night is Ghost, the horror thriller from Korea. Our hero picked the film, because for the past few times it was the princess whom had her way.
(I mean, duh.... 13 going 30? Anacondas??? Our hero definitely has better taste.)
The movie focuses more on the plot than the scare factor, and our hero doesn't quite comprehend the story, so the princess has to patiently explain it to him.
Not very patient, actually. But our hero's gentlemanly instincts pulls him through.
After the movie our hero and Princess P sit down at a park and talk a little, but our hero feels that Princess P is perhaps a little tired after her long day. Our hero walks the princess back to her place. It is a little past 3am. Our hero loosely contemplates about giving Princess P a good night kiss, but our hero chickens out (must have been the effect of KFC!)
And our hero drives back home, not before making a few wrong turns and finding himself in ulu-ulu land a couple of occassions. After exchanging yet a few more smses, our hero finds himself asleep as......
The happiest hero in modern day.
Evaluation:
Night out with Princess P.
Happiness level: +10
Tolerance level: +1000
Our hero is a real gentleman, he feels.
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Friday night. Clouds you cannot see, stars you don't see glitter. Moon somewhat a waning crescent (refer to pic on left). Darkness befalls. He showers, grabs the keys, revs up the engine, drives to school, picks her up, drives to her place (after consulting the street directory 100times), and she heads back to shower.
Our hero waits patiently in the car. Our hero has perhaps taken a liking to the princess' younger brother, for the brother, brave and resilient he is in front of his abominable sister, apparently kept hurrying her and reminding her that some gentleman is waiting for her.
It is only a SHORT 40minute wait. The princess not only have to shower, but have other important things to settle, calls to make. Upon hearing what the little brother had to say, our hero is touched.
Yes, and our hero hasn't even met him yet.
So finally the princess shows her face, her hair as if she's been caught in heavy rain, but still looking as beautiful as ever.
Our hero inhales. The princess smells like a thousand daffodils.
{disclaimer: the author doesn't know what daffodils smell like; he assumes flowers smell nice}
Our hero and Princess P then proceeds to have dinner, in an extremely romantic setting in the heartlands of....... KFC.
"Finger lickin' good" It says on the signboard above the counters. Our hero asks if anyone else has tried out the popcorn chicken. The packet is so small, almost equivalent to the size of the hero's handphone. The chicken is so small, you only need a finger and a thumb to hold and eat it. Our hero believes that KFC has got their motto right alright.
Our hero then portrays his sensitive side by listening to everything Princess P has to say throughout the night, but our hero feels there is an occurrence of unjustice as Princess P pinches our hero's cheeks every now and then. The cheeks are so soft and nice to pinch, she claims.
Our hero gentlemanly lets the lady have her way, in secret hope that she will feel guilty, but apparently, Princess P doesn't have the word guilt in her dictionary.
The movie for the night is Ghost, the horror thriller from Korea. Our hero picked the film, because for the past few times it was the princess whom had her way.
(I mean, duh.... 13 going 30? Anacondas??? Our hero definitely has better taste.)
The movie focuses more on the plot than the scare factor, and our hero doesn't quite comprehend the story, so the princess has to patiently explain it to him.
Not very patient, actually. But our hero's gentlemanly instincts pulls him through.
After the movie our hero and Princess P sit down at a park and talk a little, but our hero feels that Princess P is perhaps a little tired after her long day. Our hero walks the princess back to her place. It is a little past 3am. Our hero loosely contemplates about giving Princess P a good night kiss, but our hero chickens out (must have been the effect of KFC!)
And our hero drives back home, not before making a few wrong turns and finding himself in ulu-ulu land a couple of occassions. After exchanging yet a few more smses, our hero finds himself asleep as......
The happiest hero in modern day.
Evaluation:
Night out with Princess P.
Happiness level: +10
Our hero is a real gentleman, he feels.
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Sunday, September 05, 2004
GOAL GOAL
I scored 2 wonderful volleys today!. One a poor clearance and the ball came to me so I hit it straight back with my right foot. The second a throw in and I connected first time with my left foot. And both went in. Haha =D
I also ran alot. I feel very good about myself running past people and having people say that I'm too fast to catch up. I'm very fortunate to be blessed with pace. But that's probably also why my knees and ankles aren't as strong as they used to be. I do proper stretching, and my mum buys me cheese. That's the best I can hope for.
I'm starting to think about her and also starting to think about my essay. I've a lot of stuff to do this week. It probably means more blog entries 'cos I'll feel stone. Haha!
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I scored 2 wonderful volleys today!. One a poor clearance and the ball came to me so I hit it straight back with my right foot. The second a throw in and I connected first time with my left foot. And both went in. Haha =D
I also ran alot. I feel very good about myself running past people and having people say that I'm too fast to catch up. I'm very fortunate to be blessed with pace. But that's probably also why my knees and ankles aren't as strong as they used to be. I do proper stretching, and my mum buys me cheese. That's the best I can hope for.
I'm starting to think about her and also starting to think about my essay. I've a lot of stuff to do this week. It probably means more blog entries 'cos I'll feel stone. Haha!
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I think I'm in love.
You know you're in love if you keep thinking about someone, and no it's not because the person owe you money or something.
I think I'm in love. My friend and I touched on the topic of blogging last night and I told her I've a blog. That is about a month after she gave me her blog address. It was obvious she felt depressed that I didn't tell her mine till now (even not now as I speak). I tried explaining to her, however lame and futile it sounded, that my blog and her blog are totally different kinds of styles, and I was afraid she sees me differently due to this.
I think it's a very selfish answer on my part. People form their own opinions. She gave me hers without contemplating how I would think about it, but then again, it's not possible that I have to give everyone my blog when they give me theirs. This, I emphasise again, is a private blog in which I type what I want, and nobody knows who the hell I'm!! Actually you will know who I'm if you read carefully, but that's not the point again.
I think I'm in love. I'm very afraid that she will get angry over this, but I hope nobody gets angry over such a small issue. Maybe it's a big issue, maybe I'm thinking too much again. But there's no doubt I'm thinking much about her lately. I can't wait to see her again, plus our schedules are busy.
Waitaaaminute~
You don't believe my schedule is busy, huh? Just because I'm online 25hours a day doesn't mean I'm not busy okay~~~!!!!!
I'll write this much now, because I've gotta change, eat my noodles and head out for soccer. I feel a little slight headache. It sucks, because I hate to admit it again I'm old. It's only a few months ago that I need not sleep the whole night and go out running fit. But now just a little fatigue leaves me complaining ill. I hope nobody scolds me, because I'm old enough to scold myself, and I'll consider that.
Have a beautiful sunday.
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You know you're in love if you keep thinking about someone, and no it's not because the person owe you money or something.
I think I'm in love. My friend and I touched on the topic of blogging last night and I told her I've a blog. That is about a month after she gave me her blog address. It was obvious she felt depressed that I didn't tell her mine till now (even not now as I speak). I tried explaining to her, however lame and futile it sounded, that my blog and her blog are totally different kinds of styles, and I was afraid she sees me differently due to this.
I think it's a very selfish answer on my part. People form their own opinions. She gave me hers without contemplating how I would think about it, but then again, it's not possible that I have to give everyone my blog when they give me theirs. This, I emphasise again, is a private blog in which I type what I want, and nobody knows who the hell I'm!! Actually you will know who I'm if you read carefully, but that's not the point again.
I think I'm in love. I'm very afraid that she will get angry over this, but I hope nobody gets angry over such a small issue. Maybe it's a big issue, maybe I'm thinking too much again. But there's no doubt I'm thinking much about her lately. I can't wait to see her again, plus our schedules are busy.
Waitaaaminute~
You don't believe my schedule is busy, huh? Just because I'm online 25hours a day doesn't mean I'm not busy okay~~~!!!!!
I'll write this much now, because I've gotta change, eat my noodles and head out for soccer. I feel a little slight headache. It sucks, because I hate to admit it again I'm old. It's only a few months ago that I need not sleep the whole night and go out running fit. But now just a little fatigue leaves me complaining ill. I hope nobody scolds me, because I'm old enough to scold myself, and I'll consider that.
Have a beautiful sunday.
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Saturday outside.
Spent the whole day out of my home.
Woke up at 645am as I had a mentoring convention to attend. Overall attendance for the mentor 7th cycle was pathetic, with only about 19 out of 87 people who went. We felt really sorry for our mentoring leaders, who will probably face a hard time answering to their bosses. Not forgetting how irresponsible our peers were, having signed up and not turning up for it.
The convention was really nice. Some speakers were really good, and Dr Vivian Balakrishnan was present to grace the event. I've always liked his poise and charisma, and his public speaking ability, so it was a good morning at Sheraton Towers (newton mrt).
Went for lunch and then KTV at orchard party world? (not sure about the name), was my first time there, had a nice time although I was bombarded with girl songs and I was constantly being laughed at for my silly actions. They even took a stupid photo of an idiotic pose of me so that I could leave early.
And then I met my friend to watch Anacondas: hunt for some stupid bloody orchid in some lousy river that's infested with lame gigantic snakes and people keep dying and don't get me started on the lamest ending of all. Yah that's the title I'll give for the movie. And my friend and I predicted how many survivors will be left at the end of the show and I lost to her. Damn! And she almost forced me to say "I'm an idiot." Humpf.
We then headed to the esplanade park and sat down and talked. As usual I listened more than I spoke. But it was a really nice time. I then sent her home when she complained she was tired; it was really a memorable evening of which I'll remember in my heart.
~
There's a soccer game later at 10am, and after that I'll have to sit down and settle my essay outline. Hmm I wonder when's the next time I'll see her again.
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Spent the whole day out of my home.
Woke up at 645am as I had a mentoring convention to attend. Overall attendance for the mentor 7th cycle was pathetic, with only about 19 out of 87 people who went. We felt really sorry for our mentoring leaders, who will probably face a hard time answering to their bosses. Not forgetting how irresponsible our peers were, having signed up and not turning up for it.
The convention was really nice. Some speakers were really good, and Dr Vivian Balakrishnan was present to grace the event. I've always liked his poise and charisma, and his public speaking ability, so it was a good morning at Sheraton Towers (newton mrt).
Went for lunch and then KTV at orchard party world? (not sure about the name), was my first time there, had a nice time although I was bombarded with girl songs and I was constantly being laughed at for my silly actions. They even took a stupid photo of an idiotic pose of me so that I could leave early.
And then I met my friend to watch Anacondas: hunt for some stupid bloody orchid in some lousy river that's infested with lame gigantic snakes and people keep dying and don't get me started on the lamest ending of all. Yah that's the title I'll give for the movie. And my friend and I predicted how many survivors will be left at the end of the show and I lost to her. Damn! And she almost forced me to say "I'm an idiot." Humpf.
We then headed to the esplanade park and sat down and talked. As usual I listened more than I spoke. But it was a really nice time. I then sent her home when she complained she was tired; it was really a memorable evening of which I'll remember in my heart.
~
There's a soccer game later at 10am, and after that I'll have to sit down and settle my essay outline. Hmm I wonder when's the next time I'll see her again.
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Friday, September 03, 2004
The amazing adventures of Treppy and Rabbity!!
Chapter 1: The awakening.
It's 10am. And the alarm rings. It's Friday. Treppy doesn't go to school on Fridays. It's my long weekend, he says.
Treppy unwillingly depresses the alarm and sits up on his cozy, comfortable bed.
He can't believe his eyes.
There's his rabbit sitting on the opposite of his bed.
"I'm hungry," the rabbit says.
"What?" Treppy exclaims in total disbelief, "Are you my rabbit?"
"Yes I am."
"Rabbits don't talk."
"I do."
"You're not a rabbit then."
"I am. But I'm also the prophet. I'm Rabbity the prophet."
"My rabbit? The prophet? Rabbity?"
"Yup that's my name. Well actually YOU are mine. I'm not yours. But I'll let it be for now."
"Whaaaaaat?" Treppy feels as if he's dreaming. A bad dream.
"So how did you get in here?" Treppy closes his doors when he's asleep.
"I'll tell you soon enough. Now hurry and wake up, we've got stuff to do." Rabbity says as she jumps out of the bed and turns on the computer.
My rabbit can turn on the computer. Treppy thinks to himself. This is the weirdest day.
"I thought you were hungry." Treppy can't believe he's talking to his rabbit.
"Listen up Treppy, just go wash up while I start up the comp, alright? Now shoo."
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Chapter 1: The awakening.
It's 10am. And the alarm rings. It's Friday. Treppy doesn't go to school on Fridays. It's my long weekend, he says.
Treppy unwillingly depresses the alarm and sits up on his cozy, comfortable bed.
He can't believe his eyes.
There's his rabbit sitting on the opposite of his bed.
"I'm hungry," the rabbit says.
"What?" Treppy exclaims in total disbelief, "Are you my rabbit?"
"Yes I am."
"Rabbits don't talk."
"I do."
"You're not a rabbit then."
"I am. But I'm also the prophet. I'm Rabbity the prophet."
"My rabbit? The prophet? Rabbity?"
"Yup that's my name. Well actually YOU are mine. I'm not yours. But I'll let it be for now."
"Whaaaaaat?" Treppy feels as if he's dreaming. A bad dream.
"So how did you get in here?" Treppy closes his doors when he's asleep.
"I'll tell you soon enough. Now hurry and wake up, we've got stuff to do." Rabbity says as she jumps out of the bed and turns on the computer.
My rabbit can turn on the computer. Treppy thinks to himself. This is the weirdest day.
"I thought you were hungry." Treppy can't believe he's talking to his rabbit.
"Listen up Treppy, just go wash up while I start up the comp, alright? Now shoo."
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Homework.
I'm supposed to come up with an essay outline for my research on Family. I've narrowed down from a huge range of topics:
* Sources of stress and conflict in the family
* ways of coping with stress in the family
* causes of divorce
* Effects of divorce on children
The prof also mentioned we could come up with our own topics, of whatever we wanna research about, but I can't think of anything thus far.
Perhaps: The role of the pet in a family.
Will that do? Think I'll have to consult my tutor on that.
triggering Mr Ng HS |
I'm supposed to come up with an essay outline for my research on Family. I've narrowed down from a huge range of topics:
* Sources of stress and conflict in the family
* ways of coping with stress in the family
* causes of divorce
* Effects of divorce on children
The prof also mentioned we could come up with our own topics, of whatever we wanna research about, but I can't think of anything thus far.
Perhaps: The role of the pet in a family.
Will that do? Think I'll have to consult my tutor on that.
triggering Mr Ng HS |
Wednesday, September 01, 2004
Campus beauties and goodlookings.
I just saw this channel 8 show. Liu xing hua yuan. About the beautiful males and females in school campus. Today's was at temasek poly.
*changes to local slang mode*
Wah lau eh!! Did you guys seeeee???? The two girls chosen are so so loh. I thought the girl with the long hair sure win cos the other one was kinda tom boyish. But the two guys picked are damn good looking lor!! Buay tahan how come they are so good looking!!?!? I specially like the guy with the fairer complexion but really nice eyes and face structure.
*pauses*
*realises nobody watches this thrash*
triggering Mr Ng HS |
I just saw this channel 8 show. Liu xing hua yuan. About the beautiful males and females in school campus. Today's was at temasek poly.
*changes to local slang mode*
Wah lau eh!! Did you guys seeeee???? The two girls chosen are so so loh. I thought the girl with the long hair sure win cos the other one was kinda tom boyish. But the two guys picked are damn good looking lor!! Buay tahan how come they are so good looking!!?!? I specially like the guy with the fairer complexion but really nice eyes and face structure.
*pauses*
*realises nobody watches this thrash*
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