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25 years old.
NUS graduate.
Now earning a living as someone who has to speak properly, spell properly, write properly.
No I'm not working for Sesame street!
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Friday, May 28, 2004
This is how we do it, it's friday night.
^^Montell Jordan. Good stuff.
Hung out for one hour in mum's room. Talked a little about the future man and daughter moving in, but more on me. Mum's worried seeing me at home everyday. She said it's the holidays and I should be outside. And thus began the same old routine of discussing my circle of friends and where have all of them gone to, and how I should enlarge this circle.
She suggested that I should join the community centre's youth group (am I still a youth. heh). Well I guess I'll check it out. And other activites offered by NUS. She said I should also ask more people out often.
It's not that I haven't tried, sweet mother. I did. I still do. I told her nowadays people don't go out for fun anymore. They go out for a reason. They don't just go out and sit around and talk with you. They wanna have a motive. Like a movie, or a dinner. And after the meal they rush home. Or if there's nothing to do they go home. What's so nice about home? Hah coming from a person who spends his time 23hours at home, one hour exercising. Cute. I also said I wanna go to the beach and sit on the sand. She said that's great! They go to the beach and reservoirs to take a stroll at times too. I said yah but you guys are a couple. Guys wouldn't and don't wanna go to the beach with me. And girls will just give a quick get-out-of-jail excuse.
Then she said why don't you go out with your friends' friends. You can get to know more in this way. Then I realise I'm the one trying to get everyone to know my friends while they don't really do likewise. But I admit that at times I seem to be reluctant at the idea of seeing people I don't know. Think I'll have to work on that a little.
I don't feel so good. Again.
And I'm bummed. I still haven't seen The Day After Tomorrow and Eternal Sunshine.
Went to search on male depression in jest, not sure how trustworthy is this page, but look what I found.
Male depression
*Feel others are to blame >No I think I'm fair enough.
*Feel angry, irritable, and ego inflated >mostly not
*Feel suspicious and guarded >that's me
*Creates conflicts >can easily do so
*Overtly or covertly hostile >yes I'm learning this
*Attacks when feeling hurt >nope
*Demands respect from other >nope, not really I guess
*Feels the world set them up to fail >not that crazy
*Restless and agitated >most of the time, yah.
*Compulsive time keeper >I'm one of those who knows what happened at what time.
*Sleeps too little >Very much so, but sleeping more in the holidays.
*Needs control at all costs >nah
*Feels ashamed for who they are >not at all
*Frustrated if not praised enough >Not really but praises don't hurt.
*Terrified to talk about weaknesses and doubts >I open up easily
*Strong fear of failure >YES
*Needs to be "top dog" to feel safe >definitely not
*Uses alcohol, TV, sports, and sex to self medicate tv and sports work
*Believe their problems could be solved only if their (spouse, co-worker, parent, friend) would treat them better >nope but I don't mind
*Constantly wonder, "Am I being loved enough?" >oh you read my mind!
Ok, so we've come to the end of this useless shit. Heh like a 22year old qualifies for the term male depression anyway. Like I'm actually suffering from depression. I'm just..well.. depressed. Haha. And now I'm staring at how disgustingly old my mouse pad is. I stole it from some office when I was in the army. No wasn't from the user's table. That would have been too obvious wouldn't it? Ok I'm kidding I didn't steal it my friend gave it to me. He stole it! Yeap. Uh-huh. That's right. Now I remember Eng Wah Cinemas are giving out free The Day After Tomorrow mouse pads. That's so cool. But you gotta buy 4 tickets. Maybe I can persuade people on the spot to buy with me, and then make them philanthropistically (it's a made up word don't go checking) give me that mouse pad. Which reminds me again I haven't seen that freaking show, and it freaking kills me each freaking time I see that freaking trailer on the freaking tv. I'm gonna see it on monday, for that's a $2 difference from a weekend price. Since when was I so into bits and pieces? Since now, my dear comrades. And somehow my insecurity led me to checking the word 'comrades' on dictionary.com and they don't have the plural version. How warped is that? But I like dictonary.com It's one of my most frequent hit websites, other thanporn ponderingly (made up word again damn I'm good eh) intelligent websites. Ok so I had to check my dictionary (collins cobuild) to come up with what words start with the sound 'pon' so I could do that cheesy strikeout thing which isn't funny at all. But guess what. In my quest for letters I saw this word poofter. It means: A homosexual man. What the hell? You poofdah! This is so freaking awesome I'm gonna use this word in my next story. Speaking of which I'm still at 217 words because I can't get past the first paragraph without making their parents quarrel, and I don't wanna make the parents quarrel. Because parents always quarrel and it gets boring. I bet if you go to a primary school and ask the 7year olds to list 5 things what their parents do together, 75% of them will have 'quarreling' on their answer scripts. Someone please go try out this experiment and then tell me if I predicted the statistics right. I'm very good at predicting. This summer I'm gonna predict every correct score of every soccer game in the European Championships and I'm gonna bet big money and win big money and I'll be freaking rich and I'll be able to get a car and lots of friends who will go out with me and I'll pay for all their movies and dinner bills and until one day I'll run out of money but then there will be another soccer season and I'll predict the right stuff again and win big money and I'll be freaking rich again and I wouldn't have to sell the car and my friends will still remain and we can go out for more movies and dinner again. About 15 more days to go before the first kick off, I can't wait. And perhaps I was so bored Rabbit knows why I was watching S-league just now on channelnewsasia and you know what the commentator said? He said, 'Home United with a long ball forward. It falls to Peres. What can Peres does?"
What the F?!?!? What can Peres does? What can Peres DOES?! Ok that's it I'm stunned. Again. Can't believe it happened. Lost for words.
Oh boy and you thought I'd never end huh. Funny how a serious post could degrade into this. Once again it testifies the tremendous mood swing capabilities yours truly have.
Hope everyone's having fun tonight. =)
triggering Mr Ng HS |
^^Montell Jordan. Good stuff.
Hung out for one hour in mum's room. Talked a little about the future man and daughter moving in, but more on me. Mum's worried seeing me at home everyday. She said it's the holidays and I should be outside. And thus began the same old routine of discussing my circle of friends and where have all of them gone to, and how I should enlarge this circle.
She suggested that I should join the community centre's youth group (am I still a youth. heh). Well I guess I'll check it out. And other activites offered by NUS. She said I should also ask more people out often.
It's not that I haven't tried, sweet mother. I did. I still do. I told her nowadays people don't go out for fun anymore. They go out for a reason. They don't just go out and sit around and talk with you. They wanna have a motive. Like a movie, or a dinner. And after the meal they rush home. Or if there's nothing to do they go home. What's so nice about home? Hah coming from a person who spends his time 23hours at home, one hour exercising. Cute. I also said I wanna go to the beach and sit on the sand. She said that's great! They go to the beach and reservoirs to take a stroll at times too. I said yah but you guys are a couple. Guys wouldn't and don't wanna go to the beach with me. And girls will just give a quick get-out-of-jail excuse.
Then she said why don't you go out with your friends' friends. You can get to know more in this way. Then I realise I'm the one trying to get everyone to know my friends while they don't really do likewise. But I admit that at times I seem to be reluctant at the idea of seeing people I don't know. Think I'll have to work on that a little.
I don't feel so good. Again.
And I'm bummed. I still haven't seen The Day After Tomorrow and Eternal Sunshine.
Went to search on male depression in jest, not sure how trustworthy is this page, but look what I found.
Male depression
*Feel others are to blame >No I think I'm fair enough.
*Feel angry, irritable, and ego inflated >mostly not
*Feel suspicious and guarded >that's me
*Creates conflicts >can easily do so
*Overtly or covertly hostile >yes I'm learning this
*Attacks when feeling hurt >nope
*Demands respect from other >nope, not really I guess
*Feels the world set them up to fail >not that crazy
*Restless and agitated >most of the time, yah.
*Compulsive time keeper >I'm one of those who knows what happened at what time.
*Sleeps too little >Very much so, but sleeping more in the holidays.
*Needs control at all costs >nah
*Feels ashamed for who they are >not at all
*Frustrated if not praised enough >Not really but praises don't hurt.
*Terrified to talk about weaknesses and doubts >I open up easily
*Strong fear of failure >YES
*Needs to be "top dog" to feel safe >definitely not
*Uses alcohol, TV, sports, and sex to self medicate tv and sports work
*Believe their problems could be solved only if their (spouse, co-worker, parent, friend) would treat them better >nope but I don't mind
*Constantly wonder, "Am I being loved enough?" >oh you read my mind!
Ok, so we've come to the end of this useless shit. Heh like a 22year old qualifies for the term male depression anyway. Like I'm actually suffering from depression. I'm just..well.. depressed. Haha. And now I'm staring at how disgustingly old my mouse pad is. I stole it from some office when I was in the army. No wasn't from the user's table. That would have been too obvious wouldn't it? Ok I'm kidding I didn't steal it my friend gave it to me. He stole it! Yeap. Uh-huh. That's right. Now I remember Eng Wah Cinemas are giving out free The Day After Tomorrow mouse pads. That's so cool. But you gotta buy 4 tickets. Maybe I can persuade people on the spot to buy with me, and then make them philanthropistically (it's a made up word don't go checking) give me that mouse pad. Which reminds me again I haven't seen that freaking show, and it freaking kills me each freaking time I see that freaking trailer on the freaking tv. I'm gonna see it on monday, for that's a $2 difference from a weekend price. Since when was I so into bits and pieces? Since now, my dear comrades. And somehow my insecurity led me to checking the word 'comrades' on dictionary.com and they don't have the plural version. How warped is that? But I like dictonary.com It's one of my most frequent hit websites, other than
What the F?!?!? What can Peres does? What can Peres DOES?! Ok that's it I'm stunned. Again. Can't believe it happened. Lost for words.
Oh boy and you thought I'd never end huh. Funny how a serious post could degrade into this. Once again it testifies the tremendous mood swing capabilities yours truly have.
Hope everyone's having fun tonight. =)
triggering Mr Ng HS |